March 23, 2026

It’s Time To Reclassify Your Friends

It’s Time To Reclassify Your Friends

Send us Fan Mail We talk about why middle adulthood forces change and why unlearning old mindsets creates more freedom and peace. We unpack how relationships and identity get rebuilt when old coping systems can no longer carry the weight of your life. • middle adult transitions and the pressure of unseen struggles • unlearning what used to work when it stops serving us • broken systems built in survival mode and why they crumble later • grief as part of letting go of o...

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We talk about why middle adulthood forces change and why unlearning old mindsets creates more freedom and peace. We unpack how relationships and identity get rebuilt when old coping systems can no longer carry the weight of your life. 
• middle adult transitions and the pressure of unseen struggles 
• unlearning what used to work when it stops serving us 
• broken systems built in survival mode and why they crumble later 
• grief as part of letting go of old versions of ourselves 
• friendship rhythms changing without anyone being “the bad guy” 
• why silence kills relationship quality and emotional safety 
• learning to express needs after being taught not to speak up 
• measuring relationship quality instead of just longevity 
• making it through storms and accepting new versions of people 
• deciding what relationships to fight for and what to release 
• hang on versus hold on and what mutual support looks like 
• friendship breakups with Christ-like character and clear boundaries 
• people pleasing guilt and protecting the refining process 
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00:00 - Welcome And Why Change Matters

00:55 - Like Share Subscribe Community Talk

02:05 - Middle Adulthood And Unseen Pressure

04:10 - Broken Systems And The Table Metaphor

09:15 - Grief And Identity In Friendships

16:40 - Speaking Up After A Lifetime Quiet

22:05 - Quality Over Longevity In Relationships

27:40 - Surviving Transitions And New Versions

31:20 - A College Conflict That Endured

34:55 - Knowing What To Fight For

38:10 - Hanging On Versus Holding On

42:50 - Friendship Breakups With Character And Clarity

46:30 - People Pleasing Guilt And Protecting Change

50:05 - Loyalty Is Not Security Closing

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Yo, yo, yo, what's up, everybody?

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And welcome once again to the Unlearned Podcast.

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I'm your host with Abigail, a K-A-R-A.

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What up, friends?

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It's your girl, Jaquita.

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And this is the podcast, and it's something you gained the courage to change your mind so that you can experience more freedom.

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I don't know why, but that changed your mind here today.

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It hit today.

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Because let me tell you something.

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If you don't change your mind, the Lord will.

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Okay, listen, you can go willingly or you can go circumstantially.

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And I listen, you want to be ahead of the game.

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You want to get ahead of the game when it comes to this, to this change and what, Ruth Abigail?

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Transition.

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You want to get ahead of the game.

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Look at you.

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Look at you getting into it.

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That's good, Quita.

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That's good.

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I'm gonna even go.

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Let's go.

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Because you see, she's on fire, people.

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Like Quida's on fire.

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Um, hold on, but before, before, before, hold that fire because what we want to do is we want to tell you at the top that we appreciate you and we want you to like, share, subscribe.

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This podcast, we're always trying to grow the community.

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So if you are blessed by what you hear, don't keep it to yourselves, folks.

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You pass it along and let us know what you think.

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Drop us a comment.

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You know what I'm saying?

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Shoot us a message, you know what I'm saying?

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Like we be responding, you know.

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Like, come on.

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Listen, we actually really, really love talking with you guys.

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Um, you guys, one, y'all are so insightful.

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Some of the things that people write, um, and some of the ways, and I just want to emphasize what we do here is a labor of love.

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Okay, we do this because we love y'all, because we love uh the growth that God allows us to uh to gain through our consistent uh handing him back our lives and saying what is this mean?

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And you know, and so when people like stop me and tell me, man, I watched the episode, y'all were good, this really helped me, you know, that that really does give encouragement to continue going forward because we're really passionate about middle adult care.

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Man, that's really it's and it's necessary because we be it, you know, we we know, and you know, we be going through.

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We really be going through.

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It'd be a lot of stuff happening at one time, man.

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And you gotta manage it.

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It's a lot of stuff happening at one time, and it's like the generation before us, they left some tracks.

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They're like, you know, go this way, go that way, but they didn't tell you anything about what real experiences going through these different transitions are gonna be like.

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Like they left no real cues or clues for like what you're gonna feel emotionally going through this, or how you're gonna have to, you know, develop in different areas other than you know the obvious stuff you can see.

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And I really feel like we're at a time just in the world, in our personal development as middle adult, where it's not the seen things that we're having to pay attention to, it is the unseen.

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It is the unseen things, and there's so many reasons we could name them, but you guys know them.

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There's so many reasons why it's gonna be important to take care of yourself in these seasons.

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Oh, yeah, you're gonna need to do that, you're gonna need to do it.

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And I think the reason that we may not necessarily hear from people before us is because reality is transition happens all the time, like it is happening consistently.

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So even people who were in our season, you know, who would live this season, they're transitioning in their season now.

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So it's not it's hard to like stop and reflect when you you're constantly moving.

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Like there's just no stopping when it comes to transition.

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Something's always changing, and you have to be willing.

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And I think that's this is the beauty of how what we want to like really accentuate with how we how we communicate.

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It's like changing your mind.

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Like you have to you have to consistently unlearn things through each period of transition.

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Um, because you find things in each period where it's like this works, and then you move to the next season and it doesn't work anymore.

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And you've gotta you have to un undo that.

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You have to unlearn it, you know?

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Wait a minute, because that that is it right there.

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It is because and that is the that is the journey of middle adulthood.

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You get to a season where what used to work, it no longer serves you, it's no longer um effective, right?

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Because I think also, and this is what I was talking with um with someone that I mentor supervise today, and I was telling her about how as a middle adult you realize that there are some systems that you created out of brokenness.

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Yep.

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And you get to a point where the broken systems don't work anymore.

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You know, uh I recently uh uh elder at my church preached about how you know we have things in our house, houses that we rigged up, you know, because we may not have followed the directions to something, or maybe that table was a little wobbly, and so it got a book under there that can't nobody see.

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You know, we we have things rigged up in our lives.

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But as you middle adult, as you get to this stage where you're taking on more responsibility and you're carrying more and and you're accountable to more people and you have more impact and more influence.

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The table is only built to carry the weight when it's built properly.

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If you have a table, if you have a table that you done rigged up, and it was good in the last season because you only had two people sitting at that table.

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Now you have 10.

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You have 10 people sitting at the table.

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You got somebody trying to stand up on the table that you're trying to get to sit down.

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You have people all around surrounding you, and what you rigged up is starting to crumble.

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That's correct.

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And that is the season of transition that I think a lot of us as middle adults are finding ourselves in, is that we have tables and structures and personalities, ways of coping, ways of engagement, ways we have systems we have built that were uh that we built in a time of brokenness or in a time where we were just trying to make it in our in our teen years, in our 20s.

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You know, we said, this is how I engage with people, this is how I engage in relationships, this is how I build friendships, this is how I build uh my career, these are my ideas around what success is.

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This is what I think motherhood is gonna be like.

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This is what I think, and we build up these ideologies and these systems and these these uh rules of engagement that once you actually get into it, and when you get to the next level of your life, you realize I am I'm trying to put a I'm trying to put weight on a broken system and things are falling apart.

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So, so this is so you know, slightly funny story to that.

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I'm sitting at my keyboard the other day, and I was playing, I was was playing me and uh our son Tyson, and we um uh we were about to be done and he was saying goodnight, and he leaned over to give me a hug or a kiss or something like that, and that chair broke.

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I fell right on my behind.

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This chair had been halfway there for a while, to your point.

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And we kept sitting in it, and I used it, but it just took a little bit of pressure and I fell on my butt.

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I mean, boom.

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And it was just like, whoa, what happened?

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That junk is out in the in the yard now, it ain't it.

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We can't use it, and it's like you're right, and we should have been moved that chair, we should have been either fixed it or gotten rid of it, but we didn't.

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I just kept sitting in it.

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Listen, you know what I'm saying?

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Millennials, millennials, and middle adults in the chat right now, wherever you are.

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I want you to write.

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I everybody got something in their house that you should have been throughout.

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Yep, okay.

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We all got something you done had for 15 years.

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You bought it from IKEA when you graduated college, okay.

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And my book is good for this.

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You know what I mean?

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That's leaning to the side a little bit, okay.

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It's bad.

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And you you done propped it up in the corner in the wall so it can be supported.

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Listen, every all of us have something that it can no longer support the weight of where we are.

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No, and we're too old to be falling flat on the camera.

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You can't be falling.

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It's too old.

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You got too much.

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You don't have the bone structure.

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You want to talk about structure.

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You ain't got the bone structure.

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Can't do it.

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You don't have the muscle strength, okay, to be falling down on that ground.

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Nah, man, you don't need to be falling.

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We need to preserve these these bodies, you know.

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And so I I have been thinking about this honestly a lot.

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And I think we could probably do an entire different episode on this subject.

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So I'm not gonna go too deep into it, but um just a ways that grief.

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And you know, I've experienced grief on kind of a deeper level here recently with the passing of my dearly beloved grandfather.

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Um, but I feel like we get to these stages where you are transitioning out of one season of your life and moving into that next season of your life.

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There is a point of grief where you are having to literally grieve the things that you had to let go because they can't serve you in this season.

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Um, and one of the things that I'm currently having to navigate is the not necessarily the grief of the end of friendships and relationships, although some of them have come to a close, but the grief of the transition of how I'm situating myself in relationships because I'm looking at the personality that I've built inside of these systems.

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You know, this Jaquita's always loyal, Jaquita always shows up, Jaquita is uh never asked for anything.

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And I used to wear that like a badge of honor, like I'm a good friend.

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Yeah, you know, I I I used to consider myself to be a professional friend, you know, like hey, listen, I could make a living.

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If they if somebody was hiring for a good friend, you know, I'm like, sign me up, all right?

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Where the degree at?

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You know, where did I get my certification?

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Right?

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Because I I really pinned a lot of my identity on being able to show up for people.

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Um, but I've had to realize that some of that was created out of a out of a broken, out of a narrative of brokenness.

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And I'm having to review what what was the foundation that I was building, not what not the ways that people are showing up in these friendships, but what is the foundation that was informing the way that I was showing up?

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And that's what's what is having to be revisited.

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And it's tough.

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That is tough.

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And and it's and it's tough, but it's good inventory to take because as you get older and your life begins to shift.

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I think you said something to me like the other day where you were like, uh I I can't oh man, Quita.

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Dang it, hold on.

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What did you say?

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It was really good.

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Um I know what was.

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Yeah, yeah.

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It happens sometimes.

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All right, all right, chill out.

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Okay, all right.

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Um you uh you you but you were essentially like I know I'm I've I I need to move forward.

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Like I I can't continue to be stuck in in certain areas.

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And a lot of time, and and what this is one of those areas is like my life, I do not want to still continue to be wrestling with these things when other parts of my life move forward.

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Like I don't want to continue to be here.

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Yeah, and I think that's that's it's good inventory because uh your friends, you know, the people that you um uh that built have built tight relationships with, we say this all the time, y'all.

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Community is everything.

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You look, you and you have to your community is really a reflection of you.

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And so if you find yourself, you know, in a space where you are taking inventory and realizing maybe uh these relationships, my part in this is I have built it based on brokenness, like Queda was saying.

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I and I I showed up based on how I felt like I needed to show up in order to retain people and not not be as authentic or as um honest as I need to be in this relationship, then you you can set yourself up to be um uh to be in a position where you you can't you can't move forward and you end up uh dragging people that that you don't need to hold on to.

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So you your people become baggage and that's not healthy.

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And so you moving that into another space is is not something you want to do.

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Um and I think and I think the thing is like we kind of talk about it in terms of negative influences, you know.

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We kind of that's kind of one of those things it's like, yeah, the negative people in my life are the people that just you know are going a totally different direction, all this stuff.

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But I think the nuance here is that doesn't always have to be the case for you to have to let somebody go.

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Um or to let a relationship go, or let a relationship live in a different space.

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Let it transition, let it transition, let it be different.

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It's okay.

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Um, you know, uh all five of us, like you know, the there's five of us kind of that are still we have a crew from college, and we all live in different states at this point.

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No, that's not true.

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I'm tripping.

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One just moved.

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That's true.

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I finally after like 15 years, having dang, that's crazy.

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And then for a long time, I have we had it was two of us in Memphis.

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But we we have we have lived in different states at one point, and most of us live in different states.

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Um, we're always trying to figure out how we get together.

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And we used to be able to get together on a on a regular basis.

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We used to be able to have to have like every New Year's.

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Yeah, we used to have a hard card New Year's trip friends.

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Yep, and we did it.

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And we did it, and it was great, and we could all drive, it was no problem.

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We figure it out.

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But that was then, you know, that was then.

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It it feels impossible to get together now.

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Like we get together for big occasions, we make that happen, but just a get together just for get together's sake is like man, I don't know.

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Like, you know, some of us may be able to, a couple of us here and there, you know, but we've had to navigate and accept that our our the the the the rhythm of relationship is different simply because we've transitioned.

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And I think that something that could have been potentially unhealthy is if we allowed uh the guilt of that or the or the the um perceived comfort of that to uh make us not be be okay with accepting that transition, like forcing us, forcing ourselves to show up when we know we really don't need to show up.

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Right.

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Um or you know, anyway, so I think I think it that's it's just we've experienced that just with our our circle and it's has nothing to do with the people or the community.

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It's it's sometimes it's just time to do that.

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And and it don't have to have it don't have to be negative, but it needs to happen.

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It needs to happen.

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You gotta acknowledge where you are.

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You know, I I think one of the things that I realize when it comes to me and the sense of friendship is that you cannot build solid foundations on silence.

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And if there are areas of your life where you are not communicating and you are not expressing not just what you need, but really expressing how you're really experiencing things.

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Yeah, really expressing how things have really impacted you, you know, and I feel like I'm about to go in, I'm about to move into a season of deep expression, and I want to go ahead and apologize to everyone who may have to be a recipient of this because when you have been a person that has not spoken up for yourself and has not um and has not expressed like how things impact you, how things, how things move you to the left or the right, you know, and you and you feel like you have been, you know, you feel like you've been taking hits, but you you weren't really, you can't really call them hits because you didn't internalize them like that.

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You were just like, uh, you know, it happened, and you made excuses and you found all the reasons why, and you, you know, walked the other party through why it may have happened that way.

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Um now you need to sit, you have to sit with, you know how they say buried emotions don't die.

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Yeah.

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No.

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All that stuff that you brushed over, pretended like it wasn't there, pretended like it wasn't, it wasn't what it was, you now need to, you have to be accountable for that.

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That's correct.

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You have to be accountable for what's kind of in your reservoir.

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And when you open the lid, you can't go, they did this, they did that, yeah.

00:18:33.119 --> 00:18:34.640
This and this and this happened.

00:18:34.799 --> 00:18:37.359
Like you didn't express those things.

00:18:37.519 --> 00:18:52.400
And so, you know, I I've been at points in my life, in my in my life's journey where I have gotten to points where I have evaluated friendships and I have thought to myself, okay, what do I do with this friendship now?

00:18:52.640 --> 00:18:54.799
What do I do with this relationship now?

00:18:54.960 --> 00:18:56.880
I don't know how to move it forward.

00:18:57.200 --> 00:19:09.599
Um, and a lot of times, I think my response was creating distance and then allowing it to come back later and just be like, all right, we're cool now.

00:19:09.759 --> 00:19:12.799
You know, I just needed, you know, three months off apparently.

00:19:14.319 --> 00:19:20.079
But I think that there is, I think that there is some value in speaking up.

00:19:20.480 --> 00:19:26.319
And millennials and middle adults, let's talk about some reasons why we don't speak up.

00:19:26.480 --> 00:19:28.960
Okay, it's because you were told not to as a child.

00:19:29.440 --> 00:19:29.680
Okay.

00:19:30.240 --> 00:19:37.519
We were told, you know, not to speak, not to express, not to ask questions, right?

00:19:37.680 --> 00:19:44.160
A lot of us were given that narrative of children, children are meant to be seen, not heard.

00:19:45.119 --> 00:19:45.440
Right.

00:19:45.599 --> 00:19:52.720
And sometimes those those uh kind of rules of our youth are following us.

00:19:52.880 --> 00:19:53.200
Yeah.

00:19:53.359 --> 00:19:53.599
Right.

00:19:53.680 --> 00:20:06.480
And you internalize that maybe it is not safe for me to give opinions or to give thoughts or to give ideas or to require something of someone.

00:20:06.799 --> 00:20:17.039
Um, I know that that's something that like I've had to like wrestle with, like, you know, like, is it actually okay for me to say, hey, this is what I need?

00:20:17.200 --> 00:20:17.599
Yeah.

00:20:17.759 --> 00:20:24.079
Um, because a lot of times as a young person, it was like, hey, we all need something.

00:20:24.319 --> 00:20:27.039
So don't don't speak the needs.

00:20:27.200 --> 00:20:27.839
We all see them.

00:20:27.920 --> 00:20:28.880
You don't have to talk about them.

00:20:29.200 --> 00:20:29.519
Yeah.

00:20:29.759 --> 00:20:30.160
Yeah.

00:20:30.319 --> 00:20:30.640
Yeah.

00:20:30.799 --> 00:20:31.359
That's real.

00:20:31.680 --> 00:20:36.640
And I think as women, we get that like on uh, you know, that that's there's a duality there.

00:20:36.960 --> 00:20:42.160
Because that is something that women I think have have to grow into.

00:20:42.480 --> 00:20:55.920
Um even pretty I think a lot of women, even later in life, like where you you are willing to express what you need, um, be honest about how you feel, not just accept everything you get.

00:20:56.160 --> 00:21:05.119
But we we kind of like that's that's another narrative that's played out, like for women, is like we you just you take what you get and that should be enough.

00:21:05.359 --> 00:21:08.559
Um and that's that we have to unlearn that.

00:21:08.640 --> 00:21:18.960
That that's not obviously that's not true, but it is tough to come into that when it is what you not not just not what you've just heard, but what you see.

00:21:19.599 --> 00:21:25.039
And you you see people um behave and interact like that.

00:21:25.359 --> 00:21:33.920
And a lot of times we don't see the behind the scenes of what that behavior brings, you just see kind of the surface level of the way it looks, right?

00:21:34.160 --> 00:21:38.640
Um, you know, there let's see here.

00:21:39.599 --> 00:21:42.000
Oh, how diplomatic do I want to be?

00:21:42.160 --> 00:21:54.799
Um, so the I think there's a reality to we all know people, whether it's in our families or our other people's families who have been married, right?

00:21:55.279 --> 00:21:58.319
For 50 years, 60 years.

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And We celebrate it.

00:22:02.640 --> 00:22:06.640
And I'm not saying that shouldn't be celebrated because it takes a lot to be with somebody for that long.

00:22:07.680 --> 00:22:14.400
We also, though, don't know what that 50-60 year of staying has been.

00:22:15.039 --> 00:22:17.920
And we don't know what the behind the scenes of that has been.

00:22:19.200 --> 00:22:39.119
And I think that I hear, even not even people who've been like married um like um with fewer years than that, you get to a point where you get tired of feeling like you're not heard.

00:22:39.279 --> 00:22:58.400
And it part of that is on you because it's, you know, we're we're you're there's silence, but there's also a learned behavior because we look at the time and we look at the time frame and think marriage is about it's it's only the the win is longevity, it's not necessarily quality.

00:22:59.279 --> 00:23:04.240
And if we can stay together for a long time, then we've done what we're supposed to do.

00:23:04.400 --> 00:23:07.039
But the question is, what's the quality of that staying together?

00:23:07.200 --> 00:23:10.000
And I would say that that's that's the case with any relationship.

00:23:10.160 --> 00:23:14.480
Like you can say you've been friends with somebody for 30 years, but what's the quality of friendship?

00:23:14.799 --> 00:23:16.480
I mean, what's the quality?

00:23:16.640 --> 00:23:18.160
I'm just like, you know what?

00:23:18.400 --> 00:23:19.920
We ain't made it that long yet.

00:23:20.079 --> 00:23:21.359
We'll see when we get there.

00:23:21.519 --> 00:23:28.000
Um but the quality of the friendship.

00:23:28.240 --> 00:23:36.000
And are you are you willing to uh take inventory of the quality of something, not just the length of something?

00:23:36.480 --> 00:23:45.200
Like it takes it takes something for it to be to have the depth and the meaning that it needs to have and for it to be mutually beneficial, right?

00:23:45.279 --> 00:23:52.960
Yeah, and unfortunately, uh and friendships and other relationships and marriages, unfortunately, sometimes a lot of times it's one-sided.

00:23:53.200 --> 00:23:58.960
And you ask people to be honest, and it's like they feel like they're getting what they need and they don't.

00:23:59.279 --> 00:24:00.319
Well, why is that?

00:24:00.640 --> 00:24:01.839
What's going on?

00:24:02.240 --> 00:24:06.319
And is that something that can be changed?

00:24:06.559 --> 00:24:10.000
Or is it does it need to be, do we need to do this?

00:24:10.160 --> 00:24:11.039
Do we need to separate?

00:24:11.200 --> 00:24:28.079
So you know, I think when you think about those relationships and going 50, 60 years with someone, you know, you have to account for the you know, relationships transition because people transition.

00:24:28.880 --> 00:24:37.359
And a lot of times we we don't make it across the the transitions, you know.

00:24:37.440 --> 00:24:45.119
Like I saw, I just I'm seeing, you know, when Jesus put the disciples in the boat and said, you know, I'm gonna meet you over on the other side.

00:24:45.279 --> 00:24:48.079
Y'all get in the boat, I'm gonna meet y'all over there, right?

00:24:48.240 --> 00:25:24.960
It's the transitions, it's when we get on the boat, and now it's the waves, it's the storm, it's everything happening in between one place and the other, you know, and and navigating change and navigating uh uh stormy, stormy waters, you know, and I'm thinking about um of friends that I have who noted that um when one of them lost a parent, how much that shifted their relationship, you know, because they had to now navigate.

00:25:25.200 --> 00:25:29.119
You are, you know, this is not the same person that it was before.

00:25:29.279 --> 00:25:46.720
You you you're not you don't have the same needs, you don't have the same, the same perspectives, you don't have the same, you know, you don't joke the same, you don't, you don't, you don't exist in the world the same as you did before this big transition came.

00:25:46.960 --> 00:25:49.200
And that's where we lose each other at.

00:25:49.359 --> 00:26:01.839
You know, I um I watched it if you don't say it if you don't if you don't just saying it, if you have to be willing to take on the new version of that person, right?

00:26:02.319 --> 00:26:10.880
I I have to be willing to express what my new who first of all, I'm I'm learning new me.

00:26:11.039 --> 00:26:12.079
Well, and that's what I'm saying.

00:26:12.160 --> 00:26:14.000
I think learning and growing in it.

00:26:14.160 --> 00:26:18.079
Yeah, you have to be willing to, it has to be acknowledged is what I guess what I'm what I mean.

00:26:18.240 --> 00:26:30.559
Like it has to be acknowledged, like you have to, there has to be a an uh come to an understanding of where where we actually are and not not continue to and I that might take time.

00:26:30.640 --> 00:26:31.920
I'm not saying that happens right away.

00:26:32.079 --> 00:26:42.880
Yeah, but it but there but the unfolding of this new of this new dynamic at some point has to be acknowledged and accepted and if if we're both gonna move forward.

00:26:42.960 --> 00:26:44.319
I mean it does that make sense.

00:26:44.640 --> 00:26:54.720
No, it it does make sense, but there for the person that is on the other side of that and having to acknowledge and accepting it, there's also a level of grief.

00:26:54.880 --> 00:26:56.559
Yeah, you know what I'm saying?

00:26:56.640 --> 00:27:04.559
Like there's a level of, okay, so this isn't who we were just a few weeks ago, just a few months ago.

00:27:04.799 --> 00:27:08.559
You know, I I I have to I have to let go.

00:27:09.200 --> 00:27:34.400
I have to let go within a relationship that I'm holding on to, I have to let go of a former understanding of who you were, a former understanding of how you operated and how you and I think a lot of things as you are growing in a relationship, in a marriage, in a friendship with a person, a lot of things can knock you off your post a little bit.

00:27:34.880 --> 00:27:42.720
Can cause you to approach things differently and to need something new that maybe you didn't need before.

00:27:42.960 --> 00:27:51.920
And not that it is a test of the relationship, but relationships endure when they can make it through the transitions.

00:27:52.160 --> 00:27:52.960
1000%.

00:27:53.519 --> 00:28:04.000
And that's gonna that's gonna be completely determined by what your what your disposition toward the relationship was before the transition.

00:28:04.319 --> 00:28:14.880
You know, I'm thinking about times, and I actually, you know, one of my favorite stories to tell when I think about friendship, and I think about enduring friendship and friendship that makes it through the transitions.

00:28:15.039 --> 00:28:18.480
Me and Ruth Abigail got a tell the tell, you know.

00:28:19.119 --> 00:28:25.759
We too have a story of endurance and making it through and and transition.

00:28:26.400 --> 00:28:29.920
But you know, this friendship could have been lost.

00:28:30.640 --> 00:28:32.319
It could have been lost.

00:28:33.119 --> 00:28:35.839
We were literally in college, y'all.

00:28:36.000 --> 00:28:45.359
We shared a whole bedroom, her bed, my bed, right next to each other, and we were not in a good place.

00:28:46.640 --> 00:28:47.519
Not in a good place.

00:28:47.759 --> 00:28:48.720
And it was Queen's fault.

00:28:48.880 --> 00:28:49.599
It was Queen's fault.

00:28:49.759 --> 00:28:50.720
It was not my fault.

00:28:50.880 --> 00:28:51.920
It was not my fault.

00:28:52.079 --> 00:29:03.039
I will take responsibility for I will take responsibility that I probably could have responded to some things in a better way.

00:29:03.200 --> 00:29:06.799
I probably could have communicated things in a better way.

00:29:07.119 --> 00:29:09.680
But I was right.

00:29:09.839 --> 00:29:16.960
But nevertheless, nevertheless, this needs more there.

00:29:17.279 --> 00:29:18.559
We're not gonna get all that.

00:29:19.200 --> 00:29:20.960
Just sweep that on out.

00:29:21.039 --> 00:29:22.480
We've already made it past that.

00:29:22.720 --> 00:29:32.000
But what kept the friendship, what kept the friendship was not because either one of us gave in and said the other one was right.

00:29:33.680 --> 00:29:37.759
Neither one of us, neither, that is not what kept the friendship.

00:29:37.839 --> 00:29:46.720
What kept the friendship is one day we sat down, we looked at each other in the face and said, listen, I I'm not, I don't want to lose your friendship.

00:29:47.039 --> 00:29:50.480
I didn't go into this friendship with it being circumstantial.

00:29:50.640 --> 00:29:54.079
I didn't go into this friendship thinking that one day I would lose you.

00:29:54.240 --> 00:29:55.680
For really, it was something silly.

00:29:55.839 --> 00:29:56.480
It was silly.

00:29:56.559 --> 00:29:58.319
It really wasn't that ultimately, yeah.

00:29:58.559 --> 00:30:00.720
It was ultimately it wasn't that deep.

00:30:00.799 --> 00:30:02.000
In the time in the moment.

00:30:03.119 --> 00:30:10.880
Um, but it we had the decision, the decision was made before the transition came.

00:30:11.119 --> 00:30:14.960
That I'm willing to endure hard times with you.

00:30:15.119 --> 00:30:15.359
Yeah.

00:30:15.839 --> 00:30:21.519
I'm willing to figure things out when we get to moments where we're not on the same page, yeah.

00:30:21.759 --> 00:30:31.519
Where we don't see things the same way, where we're in a where we're disagreeing about the way that a thing looks or the way that a thing is playing out.

00:30:31.680 --> 00:30:42.960
Like ultimately it was, and I think something that I had to learn from that um from that situation is what does it mean to have somebody's back?

00:30:43.920 --> 00:30:48.960
You know, how do you have somebody's back when you disagree with what they're doing?

00:30:49.680 --> 00:30:52.000
And just to be clear, she wasn't doing nothing that terrible.

00:30:52.160 --> 00:30:54.000
I really wouldn't, but you know, it's fine.

00:30:54.160 --> 00:30:57.279
You wouldn't, you know, I don't want to make it sound like you was just out here in these shit.

00:30:57.440 --> 00:30:58.319
Yeah, like come on, man.

00:30:58.480 --> 00:30:59.440
Like, chill out, dog.

00:31:03.440 --> 00:31:04.000
Right?

00:31:04.240 --> 00:31:09.279
But I was I was at that time, and still sometimes, a person of strong opinions.

00:31:09.519 --> 00:31:11.200
Um that's what we'll call it.

00:31:11.359 --> 00:31:12.000
Yeah.

00:31:12.640 --> 00:31:13.680
We'll call it that.

00:31:14.000 --> 00:31:15.599
I was also super spiritual.

00:31:16.000 --> 00:31:18.160
Um I ain't afraid, you know.

00:31:18.240 --> 00:31:21.039
Listen, it's it was a it was a moment in time.

00:31:21.759 --> 00:31:28.000
But I, you know, what does it mean to walk with someone in moments?

00:31:28.160 --> 00:31:36.079
What does it mean to to maintain friendship in moments where you may not understand how they're moving?

00:31:36.559 --> 00:31:46.480
You know, is there a is there a foundation of trust there that can be dependent on when things change?

00:31:46.799 --> 00:31:48.640
And I do I agree with that.

00:31:48.720 --> 00:32:27.440
And I think I think but I I think there's there's there is a lingering question out there that's like, okay, but how do I determine what friendships I need to keep and what which I don't, what relationships because there has to be a there has to be a um a a bar, if you will, or or some sort of like standard that you set to say, okay, what how do I measure how do I determine when I need to fight through a transition versus when I need to separate myself from the relationship?

00:32:27.599 --> 00:32:29.839
Like that, that's a real question.

00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:32.799
Every relationship is not to be fought for.

00:32:33.519 --> 00:32:40.000
Um and and I and and and I I'm and and this is I mean, it's it's a that's hard.

00:32:40.160 --> 00:32:41.920
I I you know, and I I mean that's hard.

00:32:42.000 --> 00:32:51.039
And I I'm not we're not talking about marriages, but I I mean to s I I will say that some marriages are not meant to be fought for.

00:32:51.119 --> 00:32:53.839
Now, I we won't, I mean, I know, I realize that.

00:32:54.000 --> 00:32:57.839
Um, I realize I just said something that could be controversial, but that's okay.

00:32:58.000 --> 00:32:59.200
I'm okay with that.

00:32:59.599 --> 00:33:02.240
Uh I I I just think I believe that.

00:33:02.319 --> 00:33:03.119
Like, you know what I'm saying?

00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:08.640
There's some things that just you you can't you don't have you don't have what it takes.

00:33:08.720 --> 00:33:13.279
Like you can't, it doesn't, it doesn't, it doesn't make it, but we're not here to talk about marriages.

00:33:13.519 --> 00:33:13.920
No, no, no.

00:33:14.000 --> 00:33:16.079
But can I make a just an edit?

00:33:16.640 --> 00:33:17.200
Sure.

00:33:17.359 --> 00:33:18.880
I I probably need to edit.

00:33:18.960 --> 00:33:19.200
Go ahead.

00:33:19.519 --> 00:33:20.480
Yeah, no, no, no, no.

00:33:20.640 --> 00:33:28.240
Just uh not some marriages, it's not the marriage, it's the situations that the marriage presented.

00:33:28.960 --> 00:33:34.480
Yeah, but sometimes that can mean that the the marriage Yeah, no, sometimes that means that the marriage has to end.

00:33:34.640 --> 00:33:35.119
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:33:35.200 --> 00:33:35.359
Sure.

00:33:35.680 --> 00:33:39.200
I don't like the idea of some like just marriage.

00:33:39.759 --> 00:33:42.319
Marriage can also can always be fought for.

00:33:42.880 --> 00:33:44.319
And I'm it can be fought for.

00:33:44.400 --> 00:33:45.440
I'm not saying it can't be.

00:33:45.599 --> 00:33:52.160
And I'm not even saying you don't, but I'm saying there are instances where it's understandable that it's not.

00:33:52.480 --> 00:33:54.640
I was just making an argument for the sake of language.

00:33:54.799 --> 00:33:55.519
That's perfectly fine.

00:33:55.599 --> 00:33:56.319
And that's probably fine.

00:33:56.400 --> 00:34:00.880
Anyway, we'll move on for that because neither one of us are marriage, you know, um, you know, experts.

00:34:01.119 --> 00:34:10.480
Um, but I I but I I'm saying relationships, and I just didn't want to exclude marriage because um it that's that's a that's that is a relationship.

00:34:10.719 --> 00:34:19.760
But I do think that there are some relationships that are not that that you don't have the capacity to fight for either.

00:34:20.079 --> 00:34:24.079
Can I uh share with the people what the Lord shared with me?

00:34:24.400 --> 00:34:24.800
Yes.

00:34:25.039 --> 00:34:29.119
Okay, I appreciate your uh your permission.

00:34:29.440 --> 00:34:33.119
Um I I was I was praying to God one night.

00:34:33.199 --> 00:34:38.559
I was sitting on my couch because I feel like I've been making a lot of hard decisions here lately.

00:34:38.639 --> 00:34:44.960
And a lot of it's been a lot of hard pivots and a lot of it's it's been a very reflective moment.

00:34:45.119 --> 00:34:49.920
It's it's it's it's been honestly kind of emotionally draining, if I'm to tell the truth.

00:34:50.000 --> 00:35:07.440
But one thing that the Lord said to me that helped me to navigate how I'm looking at relationships in this season is he said, Joshua, there is a difference between people that hang on and people that hold on.

00:35:08.000 --> 00:35:14.960
People that hold on, as I'm holding on to you, you're holding on to me.

00:35:15.199 --> 00:35:21.599
And so if one of us gets weak, the other one is there to hold the other one up, right?

00:35:21.760 --> 00:35:28.000
And so if we're both holding on, yes, I feel your weight, but it's balanced, right?

00:35:28.159 --> 00:35:38.480
And I also have permission at times to be weak, to to release, to um, to it's a it's a give and take.

00:35:38.719 --> 00:35:46.000
And it's uh it's because we're holding on to each other, we can walk together if we're holding on.

00:35:46.239 --> 00:35:58.320
If someone is hanging on, that means that all of their weight is dragging on you, and you are literally pulling them along in your life.

00:35:58.639 --> 00:36:18.880
And if you ever get to a point where you become dead weight, right, where you become the person that has to, that has to, that that crumbles or that falls or that can't continue, that person that has been hanging on, they are they are now gonna be dragging you down.

00:36:19.039 --> 00:36:22.559
Like as you're going down, you're gonna feel them pulling you down.

00:36:22.719 --> 00:36:23.039
Yeah.

00:36:23.199 --> 00:36:42.400
And so as I'm thinking through how I'm navigating relationships in the season and how I am uh investigating and observing and uh reflecting on friendships and relationships?

00:36:42.639 --> 00:36:44.800
That's the first question I'm asking.

00:36:45.119 --> 00:37:02.800
Is this a relationship where if I let go and said, I'm not strong today, I don't have it today, I don't, I can't, I can't give today, would that person be somebody who says, okay, no, we're holding.

00:37:03.039 --> 00:37:04.000
So I got you.

00:37:04.079 --> 00:37:05.360
You're not gonna fall.

00:37:05.599 --> 00:37:09.440
Or is this somebody that I've been pulling along?

00:37:10.400 --> 00:37:10.880
Right?

00:37:11.039 --> 00:37:20.159
And and I think, again, you can sit and you can focus on the I'm cutting off everybody that's hanging on, right?

00:37:20.239 --> 00:37:26.000
I ain't got time for these people who all they do is take, take, take, take, and take.

00:37:26.159 --> 00:37:39.519
And you can really get lost in that perspective because you you, and it is a it is a very, it is a very deep well where you start considering things, but you start thinking about things only from your perspective.

00:37:39.760 --> 00:37:51.519
And you have to be real and honest with yourself and say, I came into this situation with a level of brokenness that has allowed for this dynamic to thrive.

00:37:51.840 --> 00:38:08.159
And just because I found my manual and I started putting my stuff together, that doesn't mean I need to communicate things effectively so that people know if I'm making moves, what the moves mean and why I'm making moves.

00:38:08.320 --> 00:38:21.920
I need to be first, I need to be clear with myself, and then I need to communicate in a way that lets other people know hey, this is how, this is how I now show up in this relationship if I'm showing up at all.

00:38:22.159 --> 00:38:22.400
Right?

00:38:22.559 --> 00:38:25.119
It's not a boundary if it's not communicated.

00:38:26.079 --> 00:38:26.480
Correct.

00:38:26.639 --> 00:38:36.000
And a lot of us are walking around with secret boundaries, but what it's not you got a secret, a secret manual that you wrote in the privacy of your heart, right?

00:38:36.159 --> 00:38:40.000
That you don't communicate to people, but then you hold them responsible for it.

00:38:40.320 --> 00:38:42.880
And that you that's not that's not fair, and you can't do that.

00:38:42.960 --> 00:38:44.320
I mean, that's that's very true.

00:38:44.480 --> 00:38:47.760
Like, yeah, I I I was hoping you were gonna talk about the hang on, hold on.

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I was hoping we would get there.

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Yeah, I've been on there for a while.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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I didn't I uh it is my new.

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I was gonna, I was it's actually gonna be what I was gonna set it up if you didn't get there.

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Like I was like, we need we actually have to do it.

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I was gonna set you up for the point.

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Oh, okay.

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No, no, no, I won't go take it.

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That's what the Lord said to me.

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I wouldn't do that.

00:39:10.559 --> 00:39:13.840
Um, no, but because I think that's a beautiful illustration.

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Like, yeah, and it's very easy to see, like you can visualize that all day long, right?

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Um and I I think that you know, the one a question um that people might be asking is how how do I do that?

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Like, how do I do a friendship breakup?

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Like, what is that like what how do I need to make that work?

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That is not easy.

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Like that is not easy when you when you know that um in in a relationship, and again, we're making a distinction between relationships that uh go through a transition or relationships that need to break apart, like need to really stop or the rhythm needs to change drastically.

00:39:57.039 --> 00:40:08.239
Um I I think one of the one of the principles that I have um used when I have had to break relationships apart from people.

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I've had to do this a few times in my life.

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I wouldn't say it's it's been a ton, but I tend to hold on too long to uh unhealthy relationships.

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And um, and so I I I I've gone through this a few times.

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I think one of the things that I committed to and have committed to is the first thing is uh don't I'm not gonna lose my character in when I when I do it.

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So if if like I'm going to approach this thing from a Christ-like perspective, regardless.

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Like I'm gonna be clear, but I'm gonna be Christ-like, right?

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And um and I'm not gonna I'm not gonna lose my character in it.

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That I think has helped ground me in how I approach things if I make a decision that I'm not gonna come out of character.

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And not only am I gonna come out of character, but I'm going to choose to position myself with Christ's character, but still maintain clarity.

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That's important.

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Because just because you have high character doesn't mean you are not clear.

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Okay.

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All right.

00:41:15.119 --> 00:41:20.079
So understand like clarity comes alongside character, and that's good.

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Um and I I would also say be, you know, be authentically who you need to be.

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If you if you communicate best through writing, it's okay to send a text.

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I I I think that's okay.

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I'm better at that.

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Like I can express myself better through writing than I can through speaking.

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Um and so if you need to send a message or, you know, a text or an email or a voice note or whatever, and then follow it up with a conversation, do that.

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Like, don't don't think, oh man, I just gotta call them.

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Because that might honestly that might screw you up.

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Because you might just blabber and not know how what to say, or you say the wrong thing, or you become unclear because you're really not confident in what you're saying.

00:42:01.679 --> 00:42:05.440
You you've gotta like be real, be who you are.

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Queen is not a texter.

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That's not her, that's not her preferred language.

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Not usually, but I don't know.

00:42:18.800 --> 00:42:24.239
You know, I I've sent a few, hey, uh, unfortunately for for you.

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I'm just saying.

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Um you know, the the this this friendship.

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Here are my reasons why.

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I'm I'm good at texting because I I do express myself through writing.

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It'd be the all day.

00:42:37.679 --> 00:42:38.480
Oh, yes, true.

00:42:38.559 --> 00:42:39.280
I mean, that's true.

00:42:39.679 --> 00:42:40.320
That's a good point.

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I could text all day.

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I never have to pick up the phone.

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But yeah, you enjoy.

00:42:44.239 --> 00:42:46.320
And I Yeah, I I enjoy good text.

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But but but you know, you have different styles, you know what I'm saying?

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Like it's like be you.

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If you the person that needs to talk through it, okay, talk through it.

00:42:53.519 --> 00:42:54.559
Like, pick up the phone.

00:42:54.719 --> 00:42:57.119
Um, don't resort to a text because it's easier.

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So I think just knowing you, be clear, have high character, those things are not mutually exclusive, and be authentically who you are.

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Don't be afraid to just be honest and do the best way for you.

00:43:12.639 --> 00:43:17.039
Um, Quido, you will you have any other uh tips?

00:43:17.519 --> 00:43:24.079
Um I I think I I will say I feel like there are some instances where I have done it wrong.

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There are some instances where I feel like it was hard, but I I did what I was supposed to do in that moment.

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And I I uh but what I will say is that um I'm not I'm not gonna necessarily talk to the what to do and what not to do.

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Because I do think you want to make sure that you are clear and that you are setting a boundary about what can and can't happen from this moment.

00:43:52.079 --> 00:43:56.960
Like I'm not, hey, I just wanna let you know I'm I'm not gonna answer your phone calls.

00:43:57.039 --> 00:43:57.920
I'm not gonna da da da.

00:43:58.719 --> 00:43:59.760
You know, this this these are.

00:44:00.239 --> 00:44:02.079
My these are my boundaries, you know.

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Because I think when we say, Hey, I just want to let you know we I ain't cool with you no more, we don't rock no more.

00:44:07.280 --> 00:44:11.519
They'd be like, All right, I see you, you know, we all go to the same little side, you know.

00:44:11.599 --> 00:44:12.559
I'm gonna see what you're gonna do.

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You're not gonna talk, you're not gonna see, you know, and so I think as clear and concise as you can.

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But I will say the thing that I've been having to process is feeling guilty for setting boundaries.

00:44:31.119 --> 00:44:36.639
Feeling guilty for saying, hey, this is this is my line.

00:44:36.800 --> 00:44:47.920
We've reached, I've reached my capacity with being able to endure whatever it is that I no longer feel like is matches who I am anymore.

00:44:48.400 --> 00:44:58.960
And but as a uh recovering people pleaser, you know, and people people's uh uh people pleaser anonymous, okay, if you would.

00:44:59.039 --> 00:45:16.079
Uh I'd like to invite all of my uh all of my uh say it diplomatic, my diplomatic people, my you gotta say it the right way people, the, you know, who am I if everybody doesn't think I'm warm and fuzzy all the time?

00:45:16.239 --> 00:45:31.599
And you know, again, I had to, I had to contend with the fact that some of my people pleasing, about 80%, a good bit of it, was built from a place of brokenness.

00:45:31.760 --> 00:45:35.760
It was built because I didn't want to have to deal with rejection.

00:45:35.920 --> 00:45:38.960
I didn't want to have to deal with um abandonment.

00:45:39.119 --> 00:45:44.159
I didn't want to feel like I had given people a reason to leave.

00:45:44.320 --> 00:45:47.679
Or I had given people a reason to think less of me.

00:45:47.920 --> 00:45:48.239
Right.

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And when you stand for yourself and say, No, I'm not gonna take that, right?

00:45:54.719 --> 00:45:55.920
In the moment it feels good.

00:45:56.000 --> 00:46:00.159
It'd be like, oh, I told you, uh uh yeah, because I I ain't fooled up with that.

00:46:00.320 --> 00:46:25.119
But then later you you start questioning yourself because the the desire to be accepted, the desire to feel like everyone likes you and everybody thinks well of you, and that nobody has anything bad to say about you, that desire will make you that's what often causes us to re-blur the lines.

00:46:25.280 --> 00:46:25.840
Yeah.

00:46:26.159 --> 00:46:40.079
And I would just encourage people to one, when you are thinking about what you are gonna say to that person, to when you are redefining a relationship in whatever way that is.

00:46:40.239 --> 00:46:43.119
Because it's not always like a strong breakup.

00:46:43.199 --> 00:46:47.280
No, sometimes it's a strong It's a redefining the rhythm.

00:46:47.440 --> 00:46:49.440
Like it's a redefining the rhythm.

00:46:49.599 --> 00:46:52.320
You know, it's a maybe we don't have to talk every day.

00:46:52.559 --> 00:46:56.880
Maybe this isn't a you know, we chill at each other's house relationship.

00:46:56.960 --> 00:47:10.559
Maybe this we just go out for lunch, maybe we coffee friends and not you know sleepover friends, like you know, maybe maybe take that how you want to.

00:47:16.800 --> 00:47:19.599
Y'all know what I meant and what I didn't mean, okay?

00:47:22.159 --> 00:47:38.320
But nevertheless, nevertheless, in any in any point where you come to a point where you are redefining the relationship, I I want you to take some time and journal reflect on your reasons why.

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Because your the temptation to go back to the way things were, and again, it's not about this other person.

00:47:48.320 --> 00:47:52.079
It's not it is about you refining you.

00:47:52.639 --> 00:48:02.800
You are having to redefine the relationship because you are being refined, and you have to protect the process that God has you in.

00:48:03.039 --> 00:48:12.719
You have to put you have to protect the moment that God has you in, and you have to you have to protect both where you've been and where God is taking you.

00:48:13.360 --> 00:48:14.800
You gotta protect it.

00:48:15.039 --> 00:48:18.719
You gotta protect it, you have to protect your transition, right?

00:48:18.880 --> 00:48:37.039
And so this is not about uh you you don't have to feel bad because you have to trust that as God is leading you and navigating you through another a new season of your life, you have to trust that God has that other person too.

00:48:37.199 --> 00:48:37.599
For sure.

00:48:37.760 --> 00:48:52.000
And that's been really hard for me because again, I pride myself on being the person that shows up, on being the person that you can depend on, and being the person that if you call, I got you, and whatever you need, and whatever you need.

00:48:52.159 --> 00:48:59.360
And to not be that person is a hit sometimes to your pride and to your understanding of who you are.

00:48:59.679 --> 00:49:03.280
Because if I'm not the person that shows up, then who am I?

00:49:03.519 --> 00:49:11.840
If I'm not the person that you can call on anytime that you want to, then then I now have to allow God to redefine me.

00:49:12.000 --> 00:49:12.239
That's right.

00:49:12.480 --> 00:49:23.440
And I have to allow God to show me what He's always intended for me versus the table that I built in order just to sustain my life in that moment.

00:49:23.679 --> 00:49:33.119
And so if I'm not showing up for you, I have to trust that you are finding God in this moment who was always supposed to be the one that showed up for you.

00:49:33.519 --> 00:49:43.360
And that that is a I think that that is part of the biggest part of that transition as as you go about redefining relationships.

00:49:43.760 --> 00:49:48.239
It's how are you gonna trust God with what you used to hold?

00:49:50.079 --> 00:50:02.159
I I I think that um you said something earlier just to like put a put this cherry on top because this was so profound.

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We talked about it, I think this I think we talked about it this morning.

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The idea of what you were just talking about, loyalty, and how loyalty does not equal security and how a lot of you did say that.

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I'm I'm I need to give you your flowers, you know, in public.

00:50:17.920 --> 00:50:18.639
You know what I'm saying?

00:50:18.960 --> 00:50:26.639
No, but you you did, and I I think like that that kind of sums up, I think, what you just said is like it who are you?

00:50:26.719 --> 00:50:30.159
I'm a loyal, I'm here, I'm I'm I'm I'm gonna be that person.

00:50:30.239 --> 00:50:32.400
You can count on me, I'm not going anywhere.

00:50:33.039 --> 00:50:37.360
And loyalty can feel uh there there is a pride to that.

00:50:37.519 --> 00:50:40.559
There there is a a clear identity to that.

00:50:40.719 --> 00:50:46.960
And when you when you say, and and and there and loyalty comes with it comes with some perks.

00:50:47.599 --> 00:50:50.400
It comes with some perks that you feel like that that they're there.

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Security is one of those things.

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It's like as long as I'm there for them, they'll be there.

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And that's not always true.

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And you get to a point where you say, okay, the loyalty that I had is not producing what it used to produce.

00:51:03.519 --> 00:51:04.960
So what needs to shift?

00:51:05.360 --> 00:51:11.199
Like, how do I need to how do I need to reevaluate what being loyal actually is?

00:51:11.679 --> 00:51:17.599
Um, and what what what this I what this thing that I've created my identity around means.

00:51:18.159 --> 00:51:20.480
Um and evaluate that.

00:51:20.559 --> 00:51:29.599
And then, like you said, like really allow God to work with you and work with other people around that reality.

00:51:29.920 --> 00:51:51.119
And it's not that you are not who you thought you were, it's just that God is rebuilding you to have a firm foundation so that loyalty is in service with God and not in service to the broken pieces that you've been trying to uphold.

00:51:51.360 --> 00:51:56.880
So it's not that I'm not loyal or that I'm not, you know, a good quote unquote friend.

00:51:57.119 --> 00:52:03.679
It's that it has to be rebuilt so that it can serve that quality in me can serve at a different level.

00:52:03.840 --> 00:52:04.079
Yeah.

00:52:04.239 --> 00:52:14.159
Um, and there are qualities in all of us that as we go through these middle adult years, okay, that that is that is another theme of middle adulthood.

00:52:14.320 --> 00:52:16.639
It is the years of the rebuilding.

00:52:16.719 --> 00:52:17.039
Yeah.

00:52:17.199 --> 00:52:17.440
Right?

00:52:17.519 --> 00:52:20.719
It's the years of, man, I thought I had it, and I did it.

00:52:20.800 --> 00:52:29.519
And now I'm I'm having the some stuff got taken apart, and I got some pieces laying around, and they have to get rebuilt.

00:52:29.679 --> 00:52:34.480
You know, uh the it says that the potter has to make you new again.

00:52:34.559 --> 00:52:45.760
Like he he he you're back in the potter's hand, and it's the same clay, it's the same material, but it's being made into something stronger and better that can endure into the season that he's taking.

00:52:47.039 --> 00:52:47.679
Well, amen.

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All right, guys, I think we're done.

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I think so.

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I think we're done.

00:52:54.559 --> 00:52:59.039
Well, thank you for listening once again to the Unlearned Podcast.

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