Feb. 16, 2026

Single In Leadership: I Swiped the Wrong Way And Met My Husband

Single In Leadership: I Swiped the Wrong Way And Met My Husband

Send a text We share how choosing a partner as a leader starts with self-knowledge, honest community, and shrinking the list to core values. Ruth Abigail walks through leaving a Velcro situationship, reframing online dating, and finding a partner who frees her to lead. • priorities in early 30s: debt freedom, home buying, career growth • writing and community work building emotional clarity • rethinking online dating as a tool for conversation • how community ends unhealthy attachments • COV...

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We share how choosing a partner as a leader starts with self-knowledge, honest community, and shrinking the list to core values. Ruth Abigail walks through leaving a Velcro situationship, reframing online dating, and finding a partner who frees her to lead.

• priorities in early 30s: debt freedom, home buying, career growth
• writing and community work building emotional clarity
• rethinking online dating as a tool for conversation
• how community ends unhealthy attachments
• COVID capacity exposing misfit relationships
• protecting leadership identity inside romance
• authenticity on apps and whole-self profiles
• non-impressed confidence as a green flag
• direction vs pace: initiative with discernment
• stop measuring partners against internet formulas
• core values over changeable traits
• private-life fit over public image
• mutual growth, humility, and teachability
• everyday signals of freedom to lead

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00:00 - Welcome & Episode Setup

00:32 - Introducing Ruth Abigail’s Story

02:43 - Single In Your 30s: Priorities And Purpose

06:55 - Creativity, Community Work, And Identity

10:23 - Why Online Dating Became A Tool

14:35 - From Wanting Marriage To Readiness

18:12 - Online Dating Experiments And Patterns

22:02 - The Velcro Situationship And Community Truth

27:02 - COVID, Capacity, And Compromise

30:12 - Leadership, Identity, And Leaving Misfit Dynamics

34:10 - A New Approach To Apps And Authenticity

38:02 - First Conversations And Non-Impressed Confidence

41:40 - Shrinking The List To Core Values

46:08 - Growth Mindset As A Green Flag

49:18 - Direction Versus Pace In Relationships

53:20 - Choosing Without Baggage Or Comparison

57:24 - Stop Measuring People Against Internet Advice

01:00:22 - Private Life Fit Over Public Image

01:04:28 - Lists Evolve Inside Partnership

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Yo, yo, yo, what's up, everybody?

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And welcome once again to the Unlearned Podcast.

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I'm your host with that Miguel, aka R A.

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What's up, people?

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It's your girl, Jaquita.

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This is the podcast that is helping you gain the courage to change your mind so that you can experience more freedom.

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And now I'm gonna pass it to Jakuita.

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Listen, guys, all right.

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Listen, okay.

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It's gonna be a great time.

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We are set for a wonderful show.

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Uh today we are actually gonna be interviewing Miss Ruth Abigail Gardner, okay?

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Um talking about her relationship journey and what it, what her experiences were in choosing the right person as a leader.

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Okay.

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So, you know, when I think about kind of like having a person, right?

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The older I've gotten in my 30s, you know, like the the more I think about like how he has to be the right one.

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Sure.

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You know, I feel like, you know, in your 20s, like your list is a little more general.

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Like, hey, you know, wanting to love God, you know, love, you know, his community, you know, be a leader, you know, be a provider, you know, really general things.

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But as I've gotten older into these middle adult years, right, I feel like I've gotten a little bit more specific in what I'm looking for because I know more about me, right?

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And so Ruth Abigail is a person who um was single for a number of years, right?

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And then found the one, my brother, right?

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And he is just the absolute perfect match for her.

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So want to just kind of dig a little bit deeper into that journey and see what gems we can unearth.

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Ah right.

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The gems.

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The gems.

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I want to pull them out.

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Okay.

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All right, we're on a we're we are on a treasure hunt.

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All right, so let's see what we get.

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So, Ruth Abigail, why don't you start off by, you know, I really want to learn.

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Let's, you know, you're not single, just want to be clear about that.

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You know, we're gonna take that plainly.

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She's single.

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Okay, she's taken off the market, you know what I'm saying?

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Okay, so uh, yeah, you know, that's for you, Ty.

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That's for you.

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Sure.

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Um, but I do want to travel back to some of your single years, um, and just thinking about, you know, we talk a lot on our podcast about kind of the different ways we see leadership um between our young adult years and our middle adult years, but I want you to start from single middle adult, right?

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So think early 30s.

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What was that time period like for you as you felt like you were just kind of like waiting on that person?

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What was the waiting season like for you?

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And especially as you were also growing as a leader, but also growing and waiting.

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Um uh first of all, I'd like to acknowledge that this is very weird.

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And um, although, you know, I participated in the idea of doing this, um, I somehow regret it a little bit.

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Okay, so she almost came up with the idea, so I don't know why she's tripping.

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Yeah, I it's weird.

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It's weird.

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I that was good in theory.

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Okay, so um single journey 30s.

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Hmm, okay.

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Where was I at 30?

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Okay, let's see.

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Um I think I was okay, so in that time for me, it really was about, I think I was um working on my finances a lot personally.

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Like that was kind of a big goal of mine was to get out of debt.

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Yeah, and so I was in the middle of that journey and was really focused on that.

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Like I was just like, hey, I I'm gonna I want to get out of debt.

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I was very focused, right?

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Really focused.

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I was really, really focused.

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And I uh I said I want to be out of debt by the time I'm 31, and which I did.

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And then um I ended up to that man.

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Thank you.

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It's a lot of people who want to be right where you at, so that's awesome.

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It's a good place to be.

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I ain't gonna lie about it.

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So um did that and then I moved in with my parents, and which was weird because I was I moved in with my parents to save money to buy a house.

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I ended up staying there twice as long as I needed to because, uh, or as I wanted to, because my car went out and I had to buy a new car before I did the house.

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Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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So I ended up staying there for like two years as opposed to like one.

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So that was weird.

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So I had to kind of like wrestle with that a little bit.

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Like uh here I am, like early 30s, and I moved back in with my parents.

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That was not the plan, right?

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Um, and then during that time, I also started doing some, you know, online dating.

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Uh, we're not there, but that was that that's how that transitioned.

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I was, you know, kind of all in on my career.

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I was doing training for youth workers at that time.

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We were also growing Angel Street at that time, and I was doing some organizing work with an organization like of social justice.

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I was doing a lot of that.

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Like I was just I was doing a lot of working, a lot of community stuff.

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Um, and that's what that's what my life was like.

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And I I really wasn't, I don't think I was super focused on dating or finding somebody at that time.

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You know, it's funny because Ruth Abigail's approach, like toward the beginning of every year, Ruth Abigail, me, Ruth, and Joy would literally be on the phone every single year.

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And Ruth Abigail would be like, guys, 2021, yeah, right, is our year.

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Our year, absolutely.

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Literally every year she was saying that, and then for the rest of the year, she wasn't focused on it.

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You know, like we, you know, we would we would bring it up occasionally, like, hey guys, remember, this is our year, right?

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Uh and then, but Ruth, you know, I would be over here, you know, trying to find somebody, and Ruth was so like focused on her goals and what she wanted to accomplish, which, you know, I think is amazing.

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So I think kind of based off of what you just said, like, can you pinpoint just kind of in those early 30s, like, what were what were your priorities?

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Like just name them out.

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What were kind of like the set priorities of what you were pursuing during that season of your life?

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Getting out of debt, buying a house, yeah, and just doing well at my work.

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That that was my those were my priorities, really.

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Like, um, and I think, you know, on the relationship side was really like just being a great friend, um, and being a great daughter, especially since I was living at the house, right?

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I was trying to like, you know, I figure that out.

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Yeah.

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Trying to, you know, make sure everybody's good.

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Trying to do that.

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I also had a a stick because I I started a blog.

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And I think this is also when my like oh yeah, yeah, mine to ink.

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Yeah, well, yeah, mine to ink.

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Uh, so I started doing like this kind of um public, more public-facing communication uh around that time.

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And I started a blog called Single 30 and Living at Home.

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Do you remember that?

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Girl, yeah, you showed me.

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And I I had a moment where I mean I wrote for like a few days.

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I just wrote, I came home and just wrote.

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And um, that was kind of my entryway into communicating with the public.

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So started this blog that kind of chronicled how I was where I was at that at that season of my life.

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Uh when I tell you I forgot about that.

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Man, I did too.

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I just like too literally just now.

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Like, I was like, dang.

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Um, I was 431 living at home.

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And that that was like I remember I specifically remember us having a conversation, like, we're gonna make a movie, guys.

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Oh my yes, that's crazy.

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Like, you know, our experience is so unique.

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Yeah, yeah.

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We yeah, I I I really so like that was also something I was focused on.

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Was like kind of where is my creative, my where's my creativity leading me right now?

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Um, and writing was just something I was just into.

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But okay, so that's that's really cool.

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You know, I think, you know, I I just said something and I'm gonna ret not retract it, but kind of edit it a little bit because I think at that time we also had this mindset of, you know, there are just so few people who are experiencing what we are experiencing, and and not so few people who are unmarried, but so few people, you know, Ruth Abigail and I kind of were in a similar boat of we did not date a lot.

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Right, you know, right?

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There were there were no real past relationships, yeah.

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Um, you know, and by not a lot, I mean not at all.

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Um that's that's very true.

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There like, and at the time, I really thought I was like, this is a really unique experience.

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But as I have talked with other middle adults, you know, we are not out here in these streets.

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You know?

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I I think I think it's a different experience, especially for black women.

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Um, you know, I feel like we have we have we have really become kind of ice, not isolated, but we are either it's something that we're waiting on to kind of like push us into that into that dating season, or we're looking for somebody to come get us.

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Like, hello, does anybody, yeah, anybody see me, come get me.

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Yeah, right.

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I'm interested in knowing, right, what pulled you out of the my priorities are really kind of cemented in work and finances and kind of building up my own solo life, buying houses, buying cars, right?

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What pulled you out of that and into the dating world?

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How did you transition?

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Yeah, um, I I was actually it was probably a conversation with my father.

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And uh he took me to lunch one day.

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We are Jay Alexander's, and um he asked me, he said, have you you know, have you tried online dating?

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To which I was like, This is like 2018.

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It was not popular, and it was still the way I saw it was.

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So, okay, and this is no offense to anyone, but this is just what was that was the way this is the way I saw it.

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Was this was for older people or divorced people, and I don't want to have anything to do with it.

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No, seriously.

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No, that's what it was, that's what I thought it was for, and and it wasn't cool.

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Like it, I felt like I would never tell anyone I was ever doing online dating.

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Like, I'm too young to do online dating, like I should be doing real dating.

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That's not even real dating.

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Like in my mind, that's what it was.

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And so, but my father, he he was like, you know, you ought to try because he knew because the reality was number one, I'm very busy, right?

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I have a lot going on.

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And I wasn't I wasn't at a place where I was like gonna give that up.

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Like I was like, nah, this is what I do, this is my life.

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Like I'm I want to do this.

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And so he knew that.

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And he asked me, and I and and so he just kind of uh helped me to um unlearn what online dating was.

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Like it's not a it's a tool, like it, it that's that's what it was.

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And he was like, it's just a tool, like it's just like anything else.

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And you know, my father's a pastor, so he talks to a ton of people, and he he was just like, Hey, you should try it, you know.

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People your age are doing it, you should try it.

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But we're just not talking about it, but it's happening.

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So I decided to give it a shot.

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And that was kind of my my entry point into dating at that point.

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I think that what really moved me there was I was starting to believe that I had done as much as I could with my life by myself.

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Like I I I I didn't really know how else to make my life better by myself.

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Um and I said, you know, I feel like I need a partner to enhance w whatever it is, you know, what the remaining what what the next years of my life is, because I just I kind of felt like I hit a ceiling of what Ruth Abigail could do, you know, um, alone.

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I I just felt like I wasn't gonna go much further alone.

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I needed partnership for that.

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So that was a little bit of where my mind was.

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Yeah, because I I just I'm a person who likes to grow.

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Like I'm a I'm oh that's just who I am.

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Um and I think that that was a piece of it.

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I also think like even relationally, like I feel like I have more to give relationally, and I don't know how to do that currently, right?

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Like, and I feel like it's just the the next level.

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I feel like I'm maximizing everything that I know to maximize right now, relationally in community, financially, work-wise, like I'm maximizing it, and I think I need more to maximize.

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Yeah, that's kind of where I'm gonna do it.

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That makes sense.

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Um I'm I'm wondering, um, as you're thinking through kind of that that place that you got to.

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So you said it was around 2018 when your dad was like, Hey, we're gonna, you know, I need to pivot you out of kind of being in this stuck place, so that, you know, and trying something different in order to get to the next level of your life.

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You know, one, do you think you would have gotten there alone?

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And two, do you think that you know, because again, you have been saying for years up until that point that marriage is coming.

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What switched from the idea of I want marriage to I'm ready for marriage?

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That's a good question.

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Um I I think from I want marriage to I'm ready for marriage.

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That's a good question.

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Yeah.

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I I I think that I think that was the feeling like I was maximizing what I what I needed to maximize, and I just felt more I don't know, I felt like the the the writing, I think the the writing really helped me and and because it helped me to get more emotionally transparent.

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I think that was a a uh a a place for me personally where I was stuck and I I I didn't know how to do that.

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And I think for for for a lot a lot of me uh uh probably delayed dating uh because I wasn't sure of how to handle myself emotionally.

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I I just wasn't comfortable.

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Uh and so writing was kind of a a way for me to explore that.

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And so as I did that and kind of began to understand who internally what was going on with me, it I felt like I was more ready to enter into some sort of you know romantic relationship.

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Um but I needed to do that, and and so that was a little bit of a process.

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Oh, I really like that, and because you know, I think that there's just a lot of us have been wanting it, you know, wanting partnership and saying, you know, Lord, this has to be my year, this has to be it.

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I know, but what I am finding as I'm talking again with our wonderful middle adult community is that when you look at people's lives as they move from the season of this is my year, this is my year, this is my year, because you did that for like at least three, four years, you know, before the year finally came, you know.

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Sure, sure.

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Um and then you you watch people as they go into a season, and it's almost like you can market now when someone is like, oh wait, no.

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They went from you know, just being in the general assembly to like they're knocking on the door of it now.

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Yeah you know, like they were out there in the lobby, now they in the hallway, now they're at the door.

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And and you you can start to discern when it's happening for someone.

00:16:56.879 --> 00:17:03.200
Um, and as I look back at your at your journey, like I feel like there was a marker.

00:17:03.360 --> 00:17:18.640
And I and I think like you doing the blog, I definitely think that that was a moment where it was a transition from this, this is a deep desire, to this is something that I'm prepared for and ready to embrace.

00:17:18.799 --> 00:17:19.920
Yeah, you know, yeah.

00:17:20.079 --> 00:17:43.599
And I and and I think, you know, as we're because you know, as we're thinking about who the person is and what characteristics we think they should have, I think what's even more important is who you who you have become and who you have and what you have opened yourself up to and uh what process you have allowed yourself to go through in order to get there.

00:17:43.839 --> 00:17:47.440
Okay, so talk to me about online dating.

00:17:47.680 --> 00:17:51.279
Okay, listen, listen, we're just gonna put it out there.

00:17:51.440 --> 00:17:55.920
Ruth Abigail knows I'm not the biggest fan of online dating.

00:17:56.160 --> 00:17:59.839
She's probably the smallest fan that I'm probably the smallest fan.

00:17:59.920 --> 00:18:03.599
I have dabbled, yeah, but every time it's begrudgingly.

00:18:03.759 --> 00:18:08.640
And the moment somebody does or says something off, I'm like, you know what?

00:18:08.720 --> 00:18:10.319
That's why I ain't elite.

00:18:11.119 --> 00:18:15.599
Delete, delete, I don't have time for these shenanigans.

00:18:15.680 --> 00:18:15.839
Yeah.

00:18:16.240 --> 00:18:18.799
Okay, I'm not fooled up with y'all.

00:18:19.119 --> 00:18:25.599
Okay, you know, I'll go find me somebody who, you know, I I still I want that old school love.

00:18:25.759 --> 00:18:30.160
You know, I want that I saw her, you know, or I knew her.

00:18:30.319 --> 00:18:32.640
We were friends, you know.

00:18:32.880 --> 00:18:36.319
I I just could not imagine my life without her.

00:18:36.480 --> 00:18:36.720
Sure.

00:18:36.960 --> 00:18:42.160
You know, and it's hard to see that happening online.

00:18:42.640 --> 00:18:43.039
All right.

00:18:43.440 --> 00:18:52.240
So I want you not not when you met my brother, but talk to me about the experiences prior to.

00:18:52.559 --> 00:18:57.839
Well, the experiences prior to were very similar to yours, and my attitude was very similar to yours.

00:18:58.000 --> 00:18:59.359
I was not really for it.

00:18:59.599 --> 00:19:05.119
Now, um, you know, uh I had another friend who had ventured into that before me.

00:19:05.519 --> 00:19:15.200
So it was helpful to have somebody who was kind of like in it a little bit, um, to kind of gauge some ex from some experience.

00:19:15.920 --> 00:19:19.920
So um, but I didn't dive in like she did.

00:19:20.160 --> 00:19:28.079
Like I was very much on the like I was very much on the outskirts, and I really wasn't, I was like, I'm really not, this just feels weird, you know.

00:19:28.240 --> 00:19:30.799
Um and it was it was an experiment.

00:19:30.880 --> 00:19:32.000
It was experimental.

00:19:32.240 --> 00:19:41.039
I probably did there was I I like to say I did about three rounds of of playing around.

00:19:41.920 --> 00:19:42.559
That's what I did.

00:19:42.720 --> 00:19:48.079
I thought three rounds of playing around, I was probably about a month or two, and then I delete it, and then I wait.

00:19:48.799 --> 00:19:59.119
And then, you know, I did another round and I would get a little further into a conversation with somebody, or maybe even like, you know, we've moved on to a to like talking on the phone and like texting or whatever.

00:20:00.079 --> 00:20:06.319
And then um we will, you know, and then I that I was like, that's no good, that's trash.

00:20:06.480 --> 00:20:08.319
Um, and then I'm done, right?

00:20:08.400 --> 00:20:09.039
For a while.

00:20:09.519 --> 00:20:13.680
And then, you know, then I so that that pattern, that was my pattern.

00:20:14.079 --> 00:20:14.400
Yeah.

00:20:15.119 --> 00:20:19.759
And it wasn't until so there I I actually there was twice that that happened.

00:20:20.480 --> 00:20:28.160
And then I did enter into a longer situation with somebody that was not from online.

00:20:29.039 --> 00:20:32.799
Um and that lasted for a couple of years.

00:20:35.039 --> 00:20:36.400
I did, I ain't gonna lie to y'all.

00:20:36.720 --> 00:20:38.799
It's the truth, it's the truth, man.

00:20:38.880 --> 00:20:42.640
And and that lasted for for longer than it should have, but it lasted.

00:20:43.279 --> 00:20:44.079
We've all been there.

00:20:44.480 --> 00:20:47.200
We've we have, and I appreciate the I appreciate the grace.

00:20:47.359 --> 00:20:52.319
Uh so and I learned a lot from that, more than I wanted to, but I learned a lot from it.

00:20:53.200 --> 00:20:53.599
Right?

00:20:53.920 --> 00:20:57.920
And so after that, I went back onto online.

00:20:58.720 --> 00:21:01.759
And that's when I made a decision to take it seriously.

00:21:02.640 --> 00:21:04.720
Okay, can I can I interject?

00:21:05.039 --> 00:21:05.440
Please.

00:21:06.160 --> 00:21:08.319
Because I want to go back to the situation ship.

00:21:08.559 --> 00:21:08.880
Okay.

00:21:09.200 --> 00:21:10.720
I'm not I'm not gonna go too deep.

00:21:10.880 --> 00:21:18.799
No, it's but I you know, listen, and I speak from experience, that's where a lot of us got stuck.

00:21:19.039 --> 00:21:41.920
Man, a lot of us got stuck right there at the situation ship because it's a situation ship, because it it refuses to have any permanence one, but even though it won't give you a resolve, there is something that keeps you attached.

00:21:42.160 --> 00:21:49.759
It's like Velcro, you know, it doesn't promise any actual power to hold any weight together.

00:21:49.920 --> 00:21:54.240
Like, you know, Velcro is good to like attach things for a short amount of time.

00:21:54.400 --> 00:21:54.720
Correct.

00:21:54.880 --> 00:21:59.759
But the moment we put some real weight on it, like Velcro is gonna snap, it's gonna snap.

00:22:00.160 --> 00:22:00.559
Up apart.

00:22:00.720 --> 00:22:01.440
Very good analysis.

00:22:01.599 --> 00:22:02.319
Very good analogy.

00:22:02.960 --> 00:22:08.799
And a lot of us have spent a lot of time in Velcro relationships.

00:22:09.039 --> 00:22:09.440
My God.

00:22:09.920 --> 00:22:13.440
Where it's almost like you are magnetized to each other.

00:22:13.519 --> 00:22:17.519
And the way that Velcro works is there is an entanglement.

00:22:17.839 --> 00:22:18.240
My God.

00:22:18.559 --> 00:22:26.000
Which I know was a big word around the around the around the early 2020s, you know.

00:22:26.240 --> 00:22:29.680
And you know, I can't remember what year that was, but it became a thing.

00:22:29.839 --> 00:22:30.000
Yeah.

00:22:30.400 --> 00:22:31.599
But that's Velcro.

00:22:31.680 --> 00:22:31.759
Yeah.

00:22:31.920 --> 00:22:36.799
Like Velcro works because the fibers become entangled temporarily.

00:22:37.119 --> 00:22:38.160
Temporarily.

00:22:38.720 --> 00:22:44.960
So, but it is easy to settle for the Velcro relationship.

00:22:45.759 --> 00:22:58.000
You know, it is easy to say, you know, hey, it's not, it's not what it needs to be today, but I'm gonna, I'm gonna believe that it will become what I want it to be tomorrow.

00:22:59.119 --> 00:23:14.720
How did you make a resolve to break your because I'm guessing, I'm not guessing, I kind of know, but but but I mean that ended before your real thing came.

00:23:15.519 --> 00:23:16.240
Yeah, right?

00:23:16.319 --> 00:23:24.079
So like it wasn't like a the real thing came and pulled you away and you were like, wait, no, I've been introduced to better, so I'm gonna go with this.

00:23:24.400 --> 00:23:31.359
You had to end a thing, yeah, and then have a moment before you were introduced to the real thing.

00:23:31.519 --> 00:23:32.000
For sure.

00:23:32.240 --> 00:23:38.160
But how did you make a resolve to get out of the Velcro situation?

00:23:39.279 --> 00:23:42.000
Uh the short answer for that is community.

00:23:43.279 --> 00:23:46.480
Um and Hello, my name is Community.

00:23:46.720 --> 00:23:47.680
Okay, all right.

00:23:47.920 --> 00:24:01.759
Uh I I I mean, you know, quite literally, I uh a friend, you know, one of my one of my friends just looked me dead in the in the face, asked me a very pointed direct question to which I it was like I snapped out of it.

00:24:02.319 --> 00:24:03.279
Uh it was what it was.

00:24:03.440 --> 00:24:06.319
So that that is just what actually happened.

00:24:06.640 --> 00:24:09.440
Um there was a lot of conviction involved.

00:24:09.599 --> 00:24:20.240
There's a lot of insecurity um that I was having to uh deal with that I had to uh uh be kind of I I had to admit to, right?

00:24:20.319 --> 00:24:23.119
And and and and deal with in the midst of that.

00:24:23.359 --> 00:24:32.880
Uh I think the other things were I think the result like it came from being honest, right?

00:24:33.039 --> 00:24:38.880
Um, with myself, but that honesty even, which is why community was so important.

00:24:39.039 --> 00:24:42.000
I I was I was honest, but then I would justify.

00:24:42.079 --> 00:24:43.279
I was honest and I would justify.

00:24:43.440 --> 00:24:44.720
I was honest and I would justify.

00:24:44.799 --> 00:24:48.799
And as long as I and also I was this was during COVID.

00:24:48.880 --> 00:24:51.599
This was, you know, so we were all very isolated.

00:24:51.759 --> 00:24:53.119
You know, I didn't feel alone.

00:24:53.279 --> 00:25:02.720
I didn't I didn't feel that because you know, I had community, I had y'all, you know, I you know, we were I was good and I feel like my relationships were established enough to to go through that.

00:25:03.279 --> 00:25:21.279
But this particular situation was uh kind of lived, had the the life was more prevalent during this time because there was also an opportunity to have a deeper attachment, so I thought, right, when I wasn't a was on when I wasn't forming more attachments.

00:25:21.359 --> 00:25:22.079
Does that make sense?

00:25:22.240 --> 00:25:22.640
Yeah.

00:25:23.599 --> 00:25:34.640
So it it presented itself as something that was more substantial than it was simply because I didn't have a lot going on, right, with my in general relationships.

00:25:34.960 --> 00:25:39.920
So I was just kind of blinded by that and blinded by that need.

00:25:40.400 --> 00:25:59.519
And um and it just it just lasts, and so you get used to it, you just get used to it, and and it becomes familiar and it's just easy, um, and you fall into you just fall into stuff, and you just say, Oh, well, I'm this is just this this must be what it is, right?

00:26:00.000 --> 00:26:02.960
Um and and I had to kind of get snapped out of that.

00:26:03.200 --> 00:26:13.599
Yeah, I think it's so interesting that you said that I because I didn't even put this together that it this relationship came about during COVID.

00:26:14.480 --> 00:26:22.240
Um because I think that that was a time when as leaders, right, like our productivity was down a little bit.

00:26:22.480 --> 00:26:23.440
Our busyness.

00:26:23.759 --> 00:26:24.799
That's a good idea.

00:26:24.960 --> 00:26:25.440
Absolutely.

00:26:25.599 --> 00:26:26.400
Yes, I had.

00:26:26.799 --> 00:26:44.160
And so when you're thinking about, you know, the season of life that we were in, as a leader, you're like, I have space and capacity to maybe see someone that wouldn't fit me in my in my regular season.

00:26:44.400 --> 00:26:45.440
It's a really good point.

00:26:49.599 --> 00:26:50.960
That's a great point, Quita.

00:26:51.119 --> 00:26:53.279
It's not even something I've never considered, honestly.

00:26:53.440 --> 00:27:04.240
I mean, it just came to me because I too had a situation ship during COVID, you know, and like you start you're sitting there and you know, you ain't got much to do, and you're like, this good work.

00:27:04.400 --> 00:27:05.200
Yeah, yeah.

00:27:05.519 --> 00:27:16.000
You know, like as a leader, you're like, hey, you know, but not but but the pandemic ended, the quarantine ended, we all went back to our jobs.

00:27:16.160 --> 00:27:20.480
I I'm I still remember the day that school told me we was coming back in June.

00:27:20.559 --> 00:27:22.799
And I said, Y'all gonna kill us.

00:27:22.960 --> 00:27:31.359
Yes, you know, but but those situationships also started dwindling when we went back.

00:27:31.599 --> 00:27:35.359
Yeah, and just becoming revealing themselves a little bit more.

00:27:35.680 --> 00:27:36.240
Like, right.

00:27:36.319 --> 00:27:42.799
So it's just like, you know, the busier I got, the more, the less healthy it got.

00:27:43.200 --> 00:27:43.599
Right.

00:27:43.759 --> 00:27:46.240
So that's so good, you know.

00:27:46.400 --> 00:27:51.039
And I I I think, and I I really want those who are listening, right?

00:27:51.519 --> 00:27:53.279
Everybody's had a situationship.

00:27:53.440 --> 00:28:02.640
And if you haven't had one, you've had a friendship that got a little close, you had you've had something where you have considered maybe this was it.

00:28:02.960 --> 00:28:07.839
Consider what season of your life that something, yes, absolutely.

00:28:08.079 --> 00:28:14.799
And because we're talking about finding a person that matches all of you.

00:28:14.960 --> 00:28:24.960
And I think what I've had to realize is that as I'm really trying to, you know, pursue, I'm pursuing life right now, right?

00:28:25.039 --> 00:28:31.039
That's what I'm focused on, not pursuing the idea of having a partner or having anything in particular.

00:28:31.279 --> 00:28:32.799
I am pursuing life.

00:28:33.119 --> 00:28:40.400
And as I'm doing that, I am becoming more of the person that someone's gonna have to say yes to.

00:28:41.119 --> 00:28:51.279
And so as I'm thinking about what characteristics I want them to have, I'm becoming the characteristics that they're gonna that they're gonna have to give their yes to.

00:28:51.759 --> 00:29:05.599
And there's areas of our lives where we have held back because we feel like, you know, like for me, you know, when I before I bought my first house, I always imagined I was gonna, you know, buy a house in marriage.

00:29:05.759 --> 00:29:09.359
Now I'm on house number two, and I'm like, hey, listen, I'll buy another one.

00:29:09.599 --> 00:29:11.119
Okay, don't pray with me.

00:29:11.359 --> 00:29:14.240
Okay, I'm gonna I'll buy up the block.

00:29:14.400 --> 00:29:16.160
All right, you ain't gotta come.

00:29:16.240 --> 00:29:19.119
All right, I'm gonna own a neighborhood by the time you get here.

00:29:19.440 --> 00:29:19.920
Absolutely.

00:29:20.160 --> 00:29:21.599
You're gonna have to match that.

00:29:22.160 --> 00:29:22.400
Right?

00:29:22.480 --> 00:29:28.240
And and so I'm watching as God has added so much to my life.

00:29:28.400 --> 00:29:40.480
And so when I think about who fits me, like who who would be a good partner for me, it's very different than who I would have felt fit me two years ago.

00:29:40.720 --> 00:29:41.119
Absolutely.

00:29:41.359 --> 00:29:42.079
You get what I'm saying?

00:29:42.319 --> 00:29:46.799
No, and so I think timing is such an important piece of this.

00:29:47.519 --> 00:29:48.480
Talk to me, okay.

00:29:48.559 --> 00:30:00.319
So we we we've kind of talked about, you know, single and thriving Ruth Abigail, who was laying the foundation for, you know, her financial identity, her work identity.

00:30:00.480 --> 00:30:06.240
When did you uh uh get your leadership role in Angel Street?

00:30:07.039 --> 00:30:12.000
Um I came officially I became the executive director officially in January of 2020.

00:30:12.319 --> 00:30:14.559
Girl, it's it's the the timeline is crazy.

00:30:14.640 --> 00:30:15.759
Yes, right, right.

00:30:15.920 --> 00:30:20.640
So, so you became executive director.

00:30:21.039 --> 00:30:25.759
Three months later, it's a pandemic, situationship, right?

00:30:25.920 --> 00:30:30.000
So they they haven't even really seen you in in ed mode.

00:30:30.240 --> 00:30:31.039
Oh no, no, no.

00:30:31.119 --> 00:30:34.640
And that the situationship started a little bit before that, starting like 2019.

00:30:34.799 --> 00:30:36.319
Um actually started, yeah.

00:30:36.400 --> 00:30:38.240
So, so, but yeah, no.

00:30:38.319 --> 00:30:39.680
Oh no, no, no, not at all.

00:30:39.839 --> 00:30:40.799
Not at all, not at all.

00:30:41.119 --> 00:30:41.440
Okay.

00:30:41.839 --> 00:30:47.759
So we get convicted, we realize I've I've been in a daze.

00:30:48.000 --> 00:30:53.920
This does not, this is not actually who I'm looking for or what I'm looking for.

00:30:54.160 --> 00:30:57.839
And so I'm guessing then we go back to online dating.

00:30:58.079 --> 00:31:05.519
Yeah, so I I will say that I there there was, yes, went back to online dating.

00:31:06.319 --> 00:31:10.079
I actually uh I gotta say this because this was important.

00:31:10.240 --> 00:31:11.440
Let me let me say this too.

00:31:11.759 --> 00:31:33.519
To the um and as a leader, one of the things that I had to I I made the I was making the mistake of doing was allowing someone else to determine uh what he wanted uh me to be how he wanted me to be.

00:31:34.400 --> 00:31:37.759
And speak on it um with the situation ship, right?

00:31:37.839 --> 00:32:00.640
So like I was bending to what he would have preferred me to be as opposed to who I really was as a leader, yeah, and that was causing me an unhealthy duality inside of me, which literally began to manifest itself physically because of anxiety, and I lost a ton of weight as a result of it.

00:32:01.680 --> 00:32:04.079
Like I never put that together.

00:32:04.559 --> 00:32:07.920
That I I lost a lot of weight, right?

00:32:08.079 --> 00:32:11.119
Like I was I was just not physically healthy, right?

00:32:11.440 --> 00:32:22.079
As a result of it, because I was trying to uh meet the expectations of somebody outside of what uh outside of who I was, particularly as a leader, right?

00:32:22.480 --> 00:32:46.160
So wow that so yeah, I just saw it just to just to no uh anybody that you are dealing with will uh not just uh accept you for the whole the totality of who you are, particularly if you are someone who has leadership responsibilities, but they will cultivate it and they will uh they will celebrate it.

00:32:46.319 --> 00:33:09.839
And when if that's not happening, then it it probably is not a good idea to continue with that because you can't you should not, I do not believe that anybody should let go of who they have, who who God has put them in the path to become for the sake of somebody else's preference and just to be with them, right?

00:33:10.480 --> 00:33:12.400
Just that that's just not healthy.

00:33:12.559 --> 00:33:19.839
Uh and so I found myself having to do that, and it was it was a wrestle in internally that manifested itself externally.

00:33:20.000 --> 00:33:21.200
And so Wow.

00:33:21.359 --> 00:33:31.359
Yeah, no, and I I think that's so key because when we're thinking about, you know, when we say the word leader, we're not talking about a position, right?

00:33:31.519 --> 00:33:39.839
Like this is this is a piece of who we are, you know, this is this is how we show up in the places that we're called to.

00:33:40.160 --> 00:33:41.279
That's right, yeah, yeah.

00:33:41.440 --> 00:33:44.240
And so, you know, there's a sacrifice there.

00:33:44.480 --> 00:33:46.640
All right, I want to get the happier times.

00:33:46.960 --> 00:34:07.039
So I want to shift, you know, I I I I think that conversation was necessary because again, you know, to my to my sister or my brother who's stuck in that situation ship, and you are looking for, you know, your reason to leave, and you're looking for your reason to go seek what's for you.

00:34:07.440 --> 00:34:10.800
I I want you I want you to believe that there's better, right?

00:34:10.880 --> 00:34:12.559
And it all happens in God's timing.

00:34:12.960 --> 00:34:14.480
All right, let's talk about God's timing.

00:34:14.559 --> 00:34:14.800
All right.

00:34:15.039 --> 00:34:20.400
So we we we we transition out of of that thing, all right?

00:34:20.480 --> 00:34:22.079
We're out of there, right?

00:34:22.559 --> 00:34:25.360
And so we're back on we're back on the dating apps.

00:34:25.519 --> 00:34:26.159
We're back on them.

00:34:26.559 --> 00:34:28.239
We're back on the dating apps, all right?

00:34:28.320 --> 00:34:32.559
And you come across the profile, yep, right, that you almost swipe past.

00:34:33.039 --> 00:34:33.679
Okay, all right.

00:34:33.760 --> 00:34:35.039
So so let me let me say this.

00:34:35.199 --> 00:34:38.079
I got back on the dating app, but I got back on with a different intention.

00:34:38.159 --> 00:34:41.119
I got back on to simply get to know people.

00:34:41.280 --> 00:34:45.519
I I I really did treat it as a as a as a almost like an adventure.

00:34:45.679 --> 00:34:52.800
And I was just like, hey, I'm just gonna get I didn't necessarily go in the same way I did before with like, ooh, I might find the person.

00:34:53.039 --> 00:34:54.320
I honestly did it.

00:34:54.559 --> 00:34:56.480
I was like, you know what?

00:34:56.639 --> 00:35:01.119
I'm just gonna talk to folk because quite frankly, asking people questions and learning about them.

00:35:01.199 --> 00:35:01.840
So I'm just gonna do that.

00:35:02.159 --> 00:35:03.519
So this is where the podcast was burned?

00:35:04.159 --> 00:35:05.360
Not at all, not at all.

00:35:05.599 --> 00:35:13.039
But I had kind of been in this mode through some some work I was doing in the community where I was asking a lot of questions, getting to know people, all this stuff.

00:35:13.119 --> 00:35:16.559
I said, I'm just gonna transfer that to here and just do that same thing.

00:35:16.800 --> 00:35:17.760
And that's what I did.

00:35:17.920 --> 00:35:23.039
So I also said I was gonna present myself as my whole self.

00:35:23.679 --> 00:35:27.679
And uh the and I'm not gonna curate myself very much.

00:35:28.159 --> 00:35:30.000
Um and I didn't.

00:35:30.159 --> 00:35:40.400
And I I put up pictures of I put up pictures of myself in a you know, in a t-shirt, and yeah, that's you know, and a t-shirt I probably would go to sleep in, right?

00:35:40.480 --> 00:35:43.599
Like it wasn't even a cute t-shirt, it was just a regular old t-shirt.

00:35:43.840 --> 00:35:48.079
Um, and I put myself I never saw these pictures.

00:35:48.320 --> 00:35:51.440
You didn't, and I didn't, I didn't, I didn't want you to because I knew you would judge me.

00:35:51.599 --> 00:35:56.480
So um, and I put it, I you know, I put pictures of myself in a professional setting.

00:35:56.639 --> 00:36:01.760
I put pictures of myself having fun with like, you know, and and so that was that was different.

00:36:01.920 --> 00:36:08.480
I was I was much more curated before, so I didn't do that, and I didn't really pay that much attention to how good the pictures look, quite frankly.

00:36:08.639 --> 00:36:13.679
Um, I wanted to make sure I looked good, but the picture itself wasn't like the quality of the picture wasn't as important.

00:36:13.760 --> 00:36:14.880
Like I really had these thoughts.

00:36:15.039 --> 00:36:18.000
I said, I'm gonna cut all that and I'm just gonna be me.

00:36:18.320 --> 00:36:26.880
Uh, and I also um decided that I was going to uh have certain kind of guidelines to how I was gonna do this.

00:36:27.119 --> 00:36:36.079
And so one of my guidelines was to I was gonna respond to anybody who messaged me, and that was what I wasn't gonna ignore them.

00:36:36.320 --> 00:36:41.119
Uh and so anyway, that's kind of how, and so anybody who messaged me, I was gonna respond to.

00:36:41.199 --> 00:36:49.840
So, yes, I took, um, I would go come home and just go through what's been happening on my phone because I didn't really pay attention during the day.

00:36:50.079 --> 00:36:52.880
And I went through and I saw a profile.

00:36:53.280 --> 00:36:56.480
Also had, I say, hey, you know, you never know out here.

00:36:56.559 --> 00:37:00.559
I'm a Christian, I'm a believer, and we at least need to start off there.

00:37:00.719 --> 00:37:03.760
We might not end up there, but it's let's start there, you know what I'm saying?

00:37:04.000 --> 00:37:06.400
Because, you know, I don't know what folk out here doing.

00:37:06.719 --> 00:37:10.079
And I said, I need that to be on their profile, right?

00:37:10.239 --> 00:37:11.920
And then there was a couple other things I said.

00:37:12.400 --> 00:37:18.639
So I go through, see a profile, it had matched with me, and it checked the boxes except for the Christian box.

00:37:19.039 --> 00:37:20.239
It just nothing was there.

00:37:20.400 --> 00:37:25.360
It didn't say another religion, it didn't say like non-religious or anything, it just said it just was blank.

00:37:26.000 --> 00:37:29.679
Well, okay, so I'm gonna swipe against it.

00:37:29.920 --> 00:37:33.920
I was like, that didn't fall into my well, I really did literally swipe the wrong way.

00:37:34.079 --> 00:37:35.840
That that is not an exaggeration.

00:37:36.000 --> 00:37:37.360
I actually swiped the wrong way.

00:37:38.079 --> 00:37:39.760
Next thing I know, I was like, oh crap.

00:37:39.840 --> 00:37:43.440
And I will probably know next literally within five minutes, he messages me.

00:37:44.239 --> 00:37:51.760
And I was like, Oh man, and so now now my other guideline, you're supposed to talk to anybody who messages you, don't blow him off.

00:37:52.079 --> 00:37:54.079
So I said, I'm gonna follow my guidelines.

00:37:54.480 --> 00:38:21.840
Okay, so I did, and uh, and so we just got to talking and we just started talking, and it was one of the more uh robust conversations, you know, and it had a little bit of depth towards it in the beginning, and so um, so yeah, I that we just started talking, and a couple days later we talked on the phone, and I think we've actually talked every day since for the last four years.

00:38:22.159 --> 00:38:28.400
That's so oh that is so beautiful, yes, yes, yes.

00:38:28.880 --> 00:38:35.280
Okay, so uh that uh talk to me about because here's here's where I get stuck.

00:38:35.599 --> 00:38:41.360
All right, on the I get stuck, I get stuck just opening the dating app to be clear.

00:38:41.679 --> 00:38:46.800
Um I mean, I just I just like uh yeah, why am I here?

00:38:47.119 --> 00:38:56.800
You know, but talk to me about the transition from talking on the dating app to then talking in person.

00:38:57.119 --> 00:39:02.079
Um the thing is it was just it was just like talking to anybody, like you just have conversations.

00:39:02.239 --> 00:39:04.719
So we we were just intentional.

00:39:04.880 --> 00:39:14.719
Um, and I I would say that he was probably he was he was pursuant, like so he was he I wasn't sitting around, I wasn't doing much pursuing, he was doing it.

00:39:14.880 --> 00:39:24.159
Um, and but I was responding and not just responding surfacely, like I was just kind of responding, you know, with a little death, and he would respond back with a little death with help, which helps.

00:39:24.719 --> 00:39:31.599
And so we just started talking, and um I think we set up a date a few a couple couple weeks after we start talking.

00:39:31.840 --> 00:39:42.639
It was it was it was nothing it was nothing, you know, uh de it wasn't it wasn't it wasn't that involved, like it wasn't like you know, it's just it just was the next step.

00:39:42.960 --> 00:40:07.840
Um and I think that that that his posture, I think the thing that I appreciated about about him, and this kind of kind of speaks to the the leader part a little bit because I I that's the other thing that's like I'm going to be before when I was doing the online dating, I wouldn't totally be totally up front about what I did for a living um because I didn't want anybody to be intimidated.

00:40:08.400 --> 00:40:11.280
And so I didn't I didn't put that out there.

00:40:11.360 --> 00:40:13.119
I think I said I just work with kids or whatever.

00:40:13.199 --> 00:40:19.519
But I I put executive director, I put that on the thing, and so because I was like, I need I I'm not gonna play these games anymore.

00:40:19.920 --> 00:40:27.760
And so um when he and I started talking, like when I would share with him what I was doing, he was more curious than anything else.

00:40:27.840 --> 00:40:33.599
He was just asking a bunch of questions because he was like, I don't know anything about this, and so we just start talking about it, right?

00:40:33.760 --> 00:40:38.320
Uh the other thing that I appreciated about him was his curiosity about my family.

00:40:38.480 --> 00:40:40.960
My father's a pastor of a large church.

00:40:41.199 --> 00:40:52.079
That was also something that I was very it I just was cautious about because I didn't, I, you know, I gotta, I don't want to, I was cautious about it for all the reasons you could think I would be cautious about it, okay?

00:40:52.239 --> 00:40:54.320
Yeah, you can't just bring anybody up into the middle.

00:40:54.480 --> 00:40:58.559
No, and and and I I particularly didn't want anybody to be enamored by it.

00:40:58.639 --> 00:40:59.760
Like I never want that.

00:40:59.840 --> 00:41:02.079
It's like I don't that's nobody wants to.

00:41:02.320 --> 00:41:03.519
No, that would not have worked for you.

00:41:03.679 --> 00:41:04.239
Not at all.

00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:06.079
And so he just he wasn't.

00:41:06.159 --> 00:41:07.360
I was he was like, oh, okay.

00:41:07.440 --> 00:41:08.559
It was like he was almost nonchalant.

00:41:08.719 --> 00:41:10.559
I was like, Well, I mean, I mean it's not a small deal.

00:41:10.639 --> 00:41:17.840
Like, yeah, like hey, hey, you know, like, you know, you know, mention his name around Memphis, see what happens, you know.

00:41:18.960 --> 00:41:30.320
But I but that actually was very that was attractive to me because I was like, you know, he it doesn't, it does not, he is obviously not intimidated by that at all, nor is he overly excited about you know what I'm saying?

00:41:30.400 --> 00:41:32.079
Like he just was just was what it was.

00:41:32.159 --> 00:41:35.840
So he just kind of like you exactly just ask questions, right?

00:41:36.000 --> 00:41:38.159
And was just curious more than anything.

00:41:38.400 --> 00:41:44.800
Um and and that that to me as crazy, that was the f that was in the first conversation.

00:41:44.960 --> 00:41:46.880
All this happened in the first phone conversation.

00:41:47.119 --> 00:41:54.000
What that told me was as a leader that he understood, he understood leadership to some degree, right?

00:41:54.159 --> 00:42:10.400
Like he was not uh overly um impressed, and that's important because I didn't want anyone to be, I don't need anybody, I don't need to partner with somebody who's impressed with me.

00:42:10.559 --> 00:42:15.599
I need to partner with somebody who's going to push me, which means you must see that I can go further.

00:42:15.920 --> 00:42:20.000
And that was so like that first step was like, he's not impressed.

00:42:20.159 --> 00:42:20.559
I like that.

00:42:20.719 --> 00:42:21.840
I like that he's not impressed.

00:42:21.920 --> 00:42:25.679
I like that there's no, you know, he's just like, okay, cool.

00:42:25.760 --> 00:42:26.800
That's just that's what you do.

00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:27.679
That's cool.

00:42:27.920 --> 00:42:31.039
Um anyway, so that that was helpful for me.

00:42:31.199 --> 00:42:32.400
I saw that's really good.

00:42:32.559 --> 00:42:44.320
I'm starting to, I'm starting to understand because I feel like you know, we go in, you know, the list, you know, has become a thing, you know, Sierra.

00:42:44.559 --> 00:42:45.039
Yes, okay.

00:42:45.199 --> 00:42:47.679
You know, what the sh give us the list.

00:42:48.000 --> 00:42:51.920
Give us the list of the qualities that you're looking for, right?

00:42:52.320 --> 00:43:13.519
But to me, it kind of sounds like in your uh kind of development of y'all's relationship and understanding of each other, you were discovering the things you needed versus going in saying, all right, he has to X, Y, and Z in order for me to know that this is the one.

00:43:13.760 --> 00:43:22.719
My, you know, you said something in the beginning that I I wanted to kind of not push back on, but just like maybe push back on, I don't know.

00:43:22.880 --> 00:43:25.679
But I I just different than what you what you expressed.

00:43:25.760 --> 00:43:30.559
So like I I would say that the older I got, the smaller my list became.

00:43:31.440 --> 00:43:37.280
Um and it it I like you know what I'm saying?

00:43:37.519 --> 00:43:43.519
Because I I I started to I started to say, what is what's really the most important things about a person?

00:43:44.239 --> 00:43:46.400
And bump all that other stuff.

00:43:46.559 --> 00:43:48.800
Like I'm not, I'm not, I don't that that stuff.

00:43:48.960 --> 00:44:06.559
And so the the biggest thing that I think as we you know, as we as we continued in our relationship and I got to know him more, and I used to tell him this, like Um I I want to focus on the things that can't change about a person.

00:44:07.199 --> 00:44:11.840
So, or that won't change about a person, who the values that have the core of that person.

00:44:12.239 --> 00:44:27.280
You know, we talk so much, especially as women, about how much a man makes, what you know, what he looks like, what his status, you know, what his status in life is, um, what he does for a living, all those things that could change like that overnight.

00:44:27.440 --> 00:44:33.920
It could be everything that you might like could be gone, and everything he doesn't have, he could get in a span of 24 hours.

00:44:34.719 --> 00:44:46.159
So I think that that if if it fell full if it fell into a category of something that could change, I I just didn't pay much attention to it.

00:44:46.960 --> 00:44:50.800
Um and I really just paid attention to the core of a person.

00:44:51.519 --> 00:44:53.039
And does his core match my core?

00:44:54.559 --> 00:44:57.199
And can we can we rock with that?

00:44:57.280 --> 00:45:00.320
Because we are we are different, we were in different places in life.

00:45:00.559 --> 00:45:06.559
Um, he was just moving to the city, he was just moving back to Memphis, so he wasn't as established as I was.

00:45:06.800 --> 00:45:10.960
Uh, he was kind of, you know, he was he was figuring his life out to some degree.

00:45:11.440 --> 00:45:14.400
And I had figured a lot of my life out.

00:45:14.559 --> 00:45:22.639
Like, um, and so that I think in the culture would have been, oh nah girl, you don't need that.

00:45:22.719 --> 00:45:25.440
You need to find somebody who XYZ XYZYZ.

00:45:25.519 --> 00:45:32.639
And it's like, I mean, I could have gone, I could have, you know, I could have, I could have listened to that and I would still be single today.

00:45:32.880 --> 00:45:40.880
Uh, and so uh that, but I just didn't have I didn't have that mindset, and I I attribute that a lot to my mother.

00:45:41.119 --> 00:45:43.920
Um but I just I just didn't have that mindset.

00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:48.800
And I I was like, I don't so much care about that because that could change.

00:45:48.880 --> 00:45:49.760
It will change.

00:45:50.000 --> 00:45:56.639
Also, you have to know that because the core of somebody, something about my husband I really appreciate is his his desire to grow.

00:45:56.960 --> 00:45:58.719
We both have that very much in common.

00:45:58.880 --> 00:46:06.000
I could I knew that just based on conversation and little a little bit of observation in the beginning.

00:46:06.639 --> 00:46:12.880
If you have a desire to grow, I know you won't be here long because that's not your desire for yourself.

00:46:13.199 --> 00:46:15.760
Yeah, it ain't about me, it's about you.

00:46:16.079 --> 00:46:24.639
Um, one of the things that he told me that I thought was also key was he said, you know, um God, I've been on this journey.

00:46:25.039 --> 00:46:30.000
Um, God has put me on this journey, this growth journey, and then I met you in the middle of it.

00:46:30.960 --> 00:46:37.599
To me, that says to me, this man is gonna grow with with a w without me.

00:46:38.480 --> 00:46:40.880
I'm not the I'm not the reason for it.

00:46:41.679 --> 00:46:46.960
And I believe God sent me in the middle of it to come alongside, right?

00:46:47.039 --> 00:46:49.280
Yeah, as a as a helper, as we are.

00:46:49.840 --> 00:47:02.320
And so that process started even before we were married, and you kind of can tell, like, hey, this is this is a ordained situation because of how we how we came into it.

00:47:02.639 --> 00:47:08.159
Uh, and so that that those were just some key things that just stuck out to me.

00:47:08.320 --> 00:47:09.840
And this was all within a month.

00:47:10.000 --> 00:47:11.199
This was not long.

00:47:11.920 --> 00:47:19.199
And just some key, you know, conversations we had, minds, you know, just phrases that I would hear over and over again.

00:47:19.440 --> 00:47:23.760
Um, and it just made me more willing to keep going.

00:47:24.639 --> 00:47:30.960
What as you were kind of going through, and it's, you know, because dating is collecting data, right?

00:47:31.039 --> 00:47:38.800
And so, like, you're kind of talking us through like how you really was collecting like the key points.

00:47:39.039 --> 00:47:48.480
How do you go from that data collection point to that decision point where you're like, I'm cementing my yes to this person?

00:47:49.519 --> 00:47:54.719
Like, I know this is the one, and I I'm cementing this.

00:47:57.280 --> 00:48:01.599
Uh, you know, uh, some of it, I don't, I mean, that's a good question.

00:48:01.840 --> 00:48:06.559
I I I think his certainty helps.

00:48:07.760 --> 00:48:12.639
You know, it's not a it's not a one-sided conversation, you know, it's a two-sided one.

00:48:12.800 --> 00:48:16.639
So if you're the only one having a conversation, that's a red flag, that's a red flag, you know.

00:48:16.960 --> 00:48:21.360
Um and so, but he and he also initiated it.

00:48:21.599 --> 00:48:26.320
He he has always been the initiator of the forward movement of our relationship.

00:48:26.559 --> 00:48:28.000
Somebody told me this earlier.

00:48:28.159 --> 00:48:43.519
Um a friend of mine uh who also was married in her earlier 30s, um, said that somebody told her this advice that uh men set the direction and women set the pace of a relationship, which I really liked.

00:48:43.599 --> 00:48:46.480
And I really felt like that was really that was really a good way to look at it.

00:48:46.639 --> 00:48:53.039
And I do feel like that was our story is he was clear on the direction pretty quickly.

00:48:53.760 --> 00:48:58.880
I I it's not that I wasn't clear, but I wasn't I didn't jump with both feet in the way he did.

00:48:59.039 --> 00:49:00.079
I was much more cautious.

00:49:00.239 --> 00:49:02.719
So I I set the pace and he allowed me to do that.

00:49:03.039 --> 00:49:06.400
Um, if it was up to him, we'd have been married about within a year.

00:49:07.039 --> 00:49:10.480
And that I was not ready for that.

00:49:10.880 --> 00:49:13.599
Like I was like, nah, nah, I need a little bit more time.

00:49:13.920 --> 00:49:22.159
And I don't know that it was really so much whether it was him or not, as much as I was I ready for my life to shift like that.

00:49:22.719 --> 00:49:40.639
And that was where my most of my thinking was like my life is it's about to shift dramatically because I realize how focused I've been on certain things, where where my natural tendency is, and now introduces a whole other person.

00:49:40.880 --> 00:49:45.360
Hey, that is a that is my life is gonna change, and I don't know if I'm ready for that just knit.

00:49:45.760 --> 00:49:53.920
So I so anyway, he set the direction and I was able to set the pace, and that was a healthy way for us to really manage that.

00:49:54.079 --> 00:50:01.440
And it gave me the opportunity to more so get myself together um than than anything else.

00:50:01.679 --> 00:50:08.000
I think I knew it it was I I probably if I'm honest, probably knew it was him pretty early on.

00:50:08.159 --> 00:50:26.000
Like I I I didn't because I didn't date a lot, and because I didn't date a lot, I didn't really have, you know, I I knew I knew who I was, I didn't date a whole lot, and so I'm actually grateful for that because I I realized, and you and I have talked about this a little bit, I didn't have a whole lot of baggage to unpack.

00:50:26.320 --> 00:50:28.159
Um when it cut I didn't well.

00:50:29.039 --> 00:50:30.559
I'm laughing at the unpack word.

00:50:30.719 --> 00:50:38.320
Oh yes, I didn't have a lot of baggage to unpack um when it came to making this connection with him.

00:50:38.719 --> 00:50:43.920
Um, and I think that helped me to make my decision.

00:50:44.079 --> 00:50:45.519
I was I was clear, right?

00:50:45.679 --> 00:50:50.079
I wasn't as the the it was clearer, the decision was clearer.

00:50:50.320 --> 00:50:56.960
So um I I I I appreciated that opportunity, and I think that was an upside.

00:50:57.119 --> 00:51:01.760
I mean, there's a downside to to maybe not dating a whole lot, but there was an upside, and that was one of them.

00:51:01.920 --> 00:51:16.719
Um was like, hey, I'm gonna, I can kind of go into this with fresh eyes, um, not doing a whole lot of comparing, like, and really see this man for who he is and not see him as men, but see him as a man, which is very different.

00:51:16.960 --> 00:51:20.800
Um and Whoa, wait a minute, don't slide past that, say it again.

00:51:20.880 --> 00:51:22.239
Okay, all right, all right.

00:51:22.400 --> 00:51:25.599
I was able to see him as a man and not men.

00:51:27.039 --> 00:51:27.519
Right.

00:51:27.679 --> 00:51:41.920
Uh, and that that helped me to be more focused on those values and the core and all this stuff, as opposed to saying, well, all these other men, he should be like all of them, right?

00:51:42.159 --> 00:51:57.679
It's not something else that I did that I'm just realizing that was really helpful is when I when we started, when when it became serious, I stopped following most accounts that had to that talked about dating um on Instagram and all that.

00:51:57.840 --> 00:51:59.679
I didn't, you know, I was following a few of them.

00:51:59.760 --> 00:52:01.920
You you know, you would tell me some and I would follow them.

00:52:02.079 --> 00:52:04.320
We would be, you know, we listen to these people.

00:52:04.960 --> 00:52:11.760
And I stopped following them because I found myself measuring him up against everything they were saying.

00:52:12.079 --> 00:52:12.719
Wow.

00:52:13.119 --> 00:52:19.119
And I was like, this is not this is not healthy because they don't know him, and I'm not going to do that to him.

00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:20.079
Wow.

00:52:21.119 --> 00:52:23.039
So I stopped following these people.

00:52:23.599 --> 00:52:24.239
Wow.

00:52:24.960 --> 00:52:46.960
You know, you're making me feel like a lot of women, I don't know about men because I'm not a man, but you're making me feel like a lot of women may be missing their blessings simply because of what we're expecting the package to look like.

00:52:47.840 --> 00:52:50.559
And because of what we told, what we've been told.

00:52:50.719 --> 00:52:55.199
I mean, there's so there's a lot of wisdom out there, right?

00:52:55.360 --> 00:53:06.880
But there's also a lot of assumptions and a lot of formulas that, baby, if we was able to get a formula and run with it, we all would be married.

00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:07.440
Right.

00:53:08.000 --> 00:53:10.239
If the formulas work, right?

00:53:10.719 --> 00:53:23.920
But, you know, we have, I think that there's just this misconception um or this ideology, um, especially with black women, that there are not enough good black men, right?

00:53:24.079 --> 00:53:25.760
That there is a shortage.

00:53:26.000 --> 00:53:26.400
Yeah.

00:53:26.559 --> 00:53:30.800
Um, and that we're not gonna find good ones, right?

00:53:30.960 --> 00:53:36.800
And I think that uh maybe in some respects there are areas where we need to open.

00:53:37.039 --> 00:53:38.320
Ty would be so proud of me.

00:53:38.400 --> 00:53:44.400
Please be sure to show him this the just this the short 30 seconds, just this clip.

00:53:44.559 --> 00:53:50.400
You know, like I do think that there are there are areas and ways that we can be more open.

00:53:50.559 --> 00:53:54.639
I do also think in saying that, like you gotta know who you are, right?

00:53:54.719 --> 00:53:56.719
And you gotta you gotta know what's gonna work for you.

00:53:56.800 --> 00:54:06.960
And one thing that you always say, Ruth Abigail, that has really stuck with me is that you were looking for someone who fit not your public life but your private life.

00:54:07.119 --> 00:54:07.440
Yes.

00:54:07.519 --> 00:54:08.239
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:54:08.400 --> 00:54:12.159
And as leaders, we are very public-facing, right?

00:54:12.320 --> 00:54:15.519
And there are a lot of people who will say, Oh, Jaquita, she's amazing.

00:54:15.599 --> 00:54:17.760
I love her, you know, she's da-da-da-da-da.

00:54:17.920 --> 00:54:19.119
She's go, go, go, go, go.

00:54:19.280 --> 00:54:25.199
Well, when I'm at home, I might look at you like, I ain't got it.

00:54:25.519 --> 00:54:30.079
Like, yeah, you know, I've been I've been energy, energizer bunny all day.

00:54:30.320 --> 00:54:35.519
You know, and so you're looking for someone that that that fits you.

00:54:35.679 --> 00:54:43.440
And I think one of the things when I noticed when I first met Ty, like I had, I just had no doubt.

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I never had any doubt that this was the person for my best friend.

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You know, like I was like, this the he's it.

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This is it.

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And it's like it when you see y'all together.

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When I I remember at the wedding, I was just like, you know when God's hand was on something because everyone was just the level of excitement and enthusiasm that people had, people who didn't even know Ty, or people who didn't know you, like we were all just like, this is the Lord's doing.

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And it was just, and we were all just so sure of it.

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Um, and I like that, you know, as we're talking about, you know, what characteristics should we as I know we've been talking about the perspective of single women, but surely there are some single men out there as well who are who are, you know, and I don't I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna, you know, isolate y'all.

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Sure.

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You know, because we all, you know, we all want, you know, what uh most of us want that.

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You know, we want companionship, we want relationship, we want family to some degree, you know.

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Um, and as we're thinking about what that looks like, you know, I'm glad that we didn't come on here and give a list.

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Like I'm glad that we didn't say, hey, if you're a leader, you need to find somebody that's gonna push you.

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But I I want us to start thinking about it as a journey.

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And the journey begins with yourself, with your self-growth, with your self-actualization, your self-realization.

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And then it transitions to the space of being open, being open to find who's actually for you, right?

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And maybe, maybe you don't know everything that that person's gonna come with.

00:56:31.280 --> 00:56:34.079
No, not basically don't probably you do not.

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It's actually very likely you absolutely will not.

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You don't know everything that that person is gonna come with.

00:56:40.000 --> 00:56:42.480
So, yes, write the list, right?

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I'm not again, I'm not against the list.

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Write the vision, make it plain.

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I'm not against the list, but also no, you don't know everything that you need.

00:56:50.559 --> 00:56:52.159
Can I also say about the lists?

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And this is I think this is also important, and particularly for leaders, because we are a lot of us are driven, and you know, and we kind of our lives are kind of managed by lists anyway.

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Like we we kind of live by the list.

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I think we have to remember that the list may not be fulfilled before you say I do.

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And you you have to know that that list a lot of times is cultivated by the partner.

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Um, I heard somebody say that uh, you know, what and and I've been guilty of this, but it's it's really easy to compare somebody you're dating to somebody who's been married for 30 years.

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Uh whether maybe it's a mentor you have, maybe it's a pastor, maybe it's your parent, you know, and we we say, you know, well, well, he done do this or she done do that.

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And you know, my my pastor said this, and this is how he is, or this is what my uh this is what my dad says, this is what my mom says, this is what they do for me, XYZ.

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And it's like, you gotta understand, you know, that that man, that woman was not that way before they met the person they're with.

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They didn't meet them like that.

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Yeah, and I would dare say that there are some things on their lists that were fulfilled in their partnership.

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That's so good.

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Right?

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And not just they didn't just come complete because you're not gonna come complete.

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And and and and that's on either side.

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And I think it's important.

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It doesn't, you cannot do that.

00:58:35.039 --> 00:58:35.760
Yeah, you can't do that.

00:58:36.079 --> 00:58:47.679
You cannot do that, and and and understand that the the way the reason they got to that, the reason you what you like in them is a is the fruit of their partnership.

00:58:47.920 --> 00:58:49.920
So that's good, you know what I'm saying?

00:58:50.239 --> 00:59:03.920
So it's like that there are things in me that have that have grown as a result of being being married to my husband who pulled that out of me, and I would not be who I am without him, and vice versa.

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And we thank him.

00:59:05.360 --> 00:59:07.679
Okay, yes, we do, because I am better.

00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:08.960
I'm better.

00:59:09.519 --> 00:59:14.400
Okay, all right, okay, all right, you know, nobody'll make it whatever.

00:59:15.119 --> 00:59:20.159
You know, Tom's very thoughtful, he's very thoughtful, and I and I'm really trying to get there.

00:59:20.320 --> 00:59:28.880
Um, but but like, but you know, I just think that's important for us to realize as we're as we're as we're making these lists, like that's great.

00:59:29.119 --> 00:59:36.000
But just know that everything on your list, some of that may be what you're supposed to help him become, yeah, or help her become.

00:59:36.159 --> 00:59:43.840
Um it doesn't mean that the list is irrelevant, it just means it's it it it you may not see it in its complete form until you take the leap.

00:59:44.159 --> 00:59:51.199
Um, and there are some things that are there are some things that you know you know are core, right?

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And then there are some things that have to be cultivated.

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And those that you have to the discernment and wisdom, but I think you know, as leaders, it's important to kind of not not put too much, not not not put too much weight on that list because I think you will find yourself nobody will nobody's gonna get there.

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No nobody's gonna be good enough for that.

01:00:14.079 --> 01:00:14.239
Yeah.

01:00:14.400 --> 01:00:26.480
And I think we have to we have to get to a point where we're not simply evaluating people against a list, but we're really taking a step back and getting to know them.

01:00:26.639 --> 01:00:30.480
You know, and and and you know, Ruth always tells me to be curious.

01:00:30.719 --> 01:00:35.760
Yes, which that's is not it's not a it's not one of my core themes.

01:00:35.920 --> 01:00:51.679
It's um but you know, but I I do think that like when it comes to getting to know people, you have to have a level of you have to when we when we evaluate people against the list, right, we're seeing how do you fit my ideal, right?

01:00:51.920 --> 01:01:08.639
When we allow people to show us who they are, right, we give them space to uncover and and reveal who they are versus trying to, you know, like like you were saying earlier, trying to become something that they think they're supposed to be for us.

01:01:09.679 --> 01:01:26.159
Um uh so Ruth, I want to, you know, uh just kind of final thoughts as you're thinking about, you know, yourself now, you know, you've been married two years, um, two wonderful years to my wonderful brother, whom I love very much.

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Um, and as you are thinking through kind of like things that you know now on the other side of marriage that have cemented I made the right choice, right?

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What are some of those things that you would say have solidified that statement?

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I made the right choice.

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What are the characteristics that you know now on the other side of it that that verify your yes?

01:01:53.760 --> 01:02:04.000
I would say um characteristics would be uh key um humility, um, teachability.

01:02:04.880 --> 01:02:14.480
I would say I I don't know, but I can't get to a characteristic, but I I I have never felt more free to lead.

01:02:15.760 --> 01:02:23.599
There's a lot of freedom that I feel to be a leader than I have since I've been married or since I've been with Ty, right?

01:02:24.079 --> 01:02:30.079
Wow, because he has demanded that I do what I'm called to do.

01:02:30.239 --> 01:02:31.440
Like it's not even an option.

01:02:31.920 --> 01:02:32.320
Wow.

01:02:32.719 --> 01:02:37.199
You know, and he makes all the space for me to do that.

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I mean, it's you know, not almost 10 o'clock, and I'm doing this podcast, he's in the kitchen cooking.

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And um and he's you know, he'll he you know, he he might text me like, hey, when do you want me to drop your fries?

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Like, you know what I'm saying?

01:02:51.920 --> 01:02:53.199
Like it's stuff like that, you know.

01:02:53.280 --> 01:02:54.320
That's beautiful.

01:02:55.199 --> 01:03:00.000
That's just like he knows, and I I got home probably around seven, right?

01:03:00.159 --> 01:03:05.679
And like, so I haven't done like I've been work this is work, I mean, I've been working all day, right?

01:03:06.159 --> 01:03:14.239
Um, and he gives me space to do that, not just but again, not just because he demands it of me because he he sees who I'm created to be.

01:03:14.800 --> 01:03:22.639
And it makes me want to go harder uh in that and it also makes me want to do the same for him.

01:03:23.440 --> 01:03:27.360
And so that is that's and that's our dynamic, right?

01:03:27.440 --> 01:03:35.920
And I think I don't I can't dynamic characteristics, but that is that is one of the things that helped me to say to cement that cement the yes.

01:03:36.079 --> 01:03:39.679
Uh I think his his commitment to growth.

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I mean, I have seen this man become the husband he has wanted to be.

01:03:48.400 --> 01:03:49.519
Beautiful, you know?

01:03:49.760 --> 01:03:50.079
Yeah.

01:03:50.239 --> 01:03:54.800
And and I think he would say the same of of me uh trying to.

01:03:54.960 --> 01:03:59.679
I personally think he's done a better job than I have, but um don't don't don't agree with that.

01:03:59.920 --> 01:04:00.719
Don't shake your hands.

01:04:00.880 --> 01:04:01.599
I tried not to.

01:04:01.760 --> 01:04:02.159
I see that.

01:04:02.320 --> 01:04:03.440
But the nod came.

01:04:03.679 --> 01:04:05.039
Wow, my gosh.

01:04:05.280 --> 01:04:06.239
No, I do though.

01:04:06.320 --> 01:04:08.159
I really think he's I I think that.

01:04:08.239 --> 01:04:14.000
Um, and he would he would tell me I'm wrong, but I he's not here, so he he doesn't get to say it.

01:04:14.239 --> 01:04:17.920
Um so I I feel like I've seen a great wife.

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I I am learning, God knows I'm learning.

01:04:21.599 --> 01:04:31.519
Um but but I've seen him um I've seen him become the man he wants to be, and how who he has like he said he wants to be.

01:04:31.760 --> 01:04:35.760
And that's that's a testament to his uh commitment to growth.

01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:41.679
And like I said, that was something I saw within the first couple of times we talked, like, and it's manifested even more.

01:04:42.079 --> 01:04:50.559
Um and so yeah, I think those are some of the things that um that have cemented the S.

01:04:51.280 --> 01:04:52.480
That's good, man.

01:04:52.639 --> 01:04:53.440
That's good.

01:04:53.679 --> 01:05:04.320
And I think that that solidifies we are not just looking for, you know, like uh uh an arbitrary list of good characteristics, right?

01:05:04.480 --> 01:05:13.039
We are looking for the person that we can travel through life with that's gonna push us um to move forward together into God's best.

01:05:13.360 --> 01:05:13.679
Amen.

01:05:14.079 --> 01:05:14.400
Right?

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All right, I love that.

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I love that.

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What a fantastic time, friends, okay.

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Anybody give it up for Ruth Abigail, all right, who came out of her comfort zone, okay?

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She's normally on the other side of this, always asking people the questions, but today she got grilled, okay.

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And I had a good time.

01:05:36.559 --> 01:05:37.519
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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